Can any other HPD's relate to this?

Hi! I'm a young adult male who was diagnosed 2 years ago with acute anxiety and major depression. After 2 years of therapy and medication, I've almost completely gotten over those specific issues. When I went in to get tested for ADD recently, the diagnoses came out in a surprising manner. HPD, generalized anxiety and moderate ADHD. The ADHD and anxiety I was not surprised about, but I had no idea at the time what HPD was! After my doctor gave me my extremely detailed case report and explained, every bit of self esteem I had in me left. I realized, looking back over my life, what a blur of extreme emotions, lies and manipulation I have put on other people. For a couple days, I was not sad or anything much at all. I just felt almost completely worthless and tried to suppress my own emotions. Now I am actively working on myself to treat myself, and the people around me, better.
(Question) - How did you react when you got your diagnoses and can you relate to my own reaction?

Another thing I'd to see if anyone else has an experience with is that with the constant blur of very intense, and real, emotions that a person has borderline real delusions? Something I deal with a lot is lying, or exaggerating, about what I know or stories from the past. When I start, I pretty much completely believe the events I am lying about has happened. There are times in my life where I don't actually know if they happened, or if I am completely caught up in my own lies.
(Second Question) - Do you ever actually delude yourself to the point of actually believing lies, and how have you personally dealt with this.

Thanks guys and girls!

i had been misdiagnosed with BPD for a couple years before finding out it was actually HPD. it was upsetting, because during the time i thought i had BPD i was able to keep convincing myself i was an empathetic and loving person with a "tragic backstory" type of thing going on...finding out i had HPD completely smashed that facade to bits and forced me to look back on my actions through a much clearer lens. i can definitely relate.

as for delusions--i might not be the best example, since i have also a delusional disorder to begin with, but yes, i definitely get so caught up in my own compulsive lying that i genuinely don't know what the truth is.