What would happen if you lost your entire supply overnight?

by **Fletch** » Tue Sep 06, 2016 3:52 am

I'm curious about how someone with hpd/npd would possibly react, if somehow they woke up tomorrow and their entire supply was gone?

Would it cause some sort of breakdown? Would it maybe trigger someone who refuses to seek therapy to do it? I've read that loss of a marriage or job for example, can trigger the hpd to persue therapy. The reason I ask is because the hpd I know has gone through divorce, multiple job losses, is an alcoholic who developed liver disease, etc. Yet nothing seems to be enough for her to stop. She has just gotten worse. I'm wondering if compete loss of supply would finally cause her to break down? It's literally killing her and she's just riding it. It amazes me how someone can be so completely immune to introspection at all costs.

For example, what if she/you were sentenced to prison where you had no phone, or social media? You wouldn't be able to keep secrets or hide anything. You wouldn't be able to manipulate people because there is no privacy and everyone would be immediately on to you. You couldn't wear makeup or dress provocatively. Would you not be forced to face yourself in that environment with no place to run?

Hey Fletch,

as an example, it is well-known that the end of a relationship can cause a dangerous depression to HPD sufferers -- so much that it may even cause suicide attempts in the most extreme cases. Other examples may be the end of a job, the end of a friendship, and so on. In the end, like BPD, HPD is also an attachment disorder.

In any case, I think that the abiity to introspect depends on the individual...some are completely inpenetrable to introspection, while others have very good chances to improve their own lives (in the forum we have some pretty good past examples).

In the first case, sufferers just go on living their chaotic life, ignoring that problems plaguing their lives do stem (also) from their own dysfunctional behaviours, thoughts and actions.
In other words, when someone or something does not fit them anymore, they literally tend to play the "victim" role, dispose of the "entity" that disturbes them, and just move on.

by **jmoon** » Tue Oct 04, 2016 5:11 am

That's true, but the suicide attempt could also be a manipulation to test if the person still loves them. Or a cry for help.

For me though, there was a time when losing supply could be deadly. When you base your entire self-worth on what others think of you, losing that is like having the bottom pulled out from underneath you. Plummeting into depression and despair and on the brink of suicide that can take a long time to recover from.

It's only through therapy, finding God, learning to develop healthy, lasting relationships that I could begin the healing process and work my way into recovery.

by **Fr4nz83** » Wed Oct 05, 2016 11:04 am

Absolutely true jmoon, when we delegate our worth to the opinions of others, and forget who we truly are, the is the perfect receipt for a personal disaster...

by **LilOwl** » Mon Jan 30, 2017 11:12 pm

Pretty much did this. Felt extremely suicidal on the first night.

Luckily my husband came home shortly after and i felt safe again.

Now I need to apologise to those I've hurt, lied to and manipulated, see if there's any chance left of a healthy friendship with them.

I guess it kind of works. But right now I'm seeking help, as since I've lost said supply, gone with it is my entire self esteem, self worth and self motivation. Bleh.

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