Hi guys,
Hope you are well. I'm Nicky from Australia. My head is telling me I'm an idiot to jump on a forum, but secretly I've been stalking them on and off for years hoping to find "the answer". So I've been diagnosed with HPD today. Initially, anger, shock, "I CBF dealing with this now too" .. type scenario. But I've chilled a bit since my appointment and have spent hours reading up on it. YEP .... the diagnosis and criteria pretty much sum me up to a tea. But I'm angry ....We're you guys angry too?? I am 35 years old and been seeing shrinks since i was 14. HOW has this not been picked up all this time? 14 yrs anorexia, 17 years anxiety, 18 yrs agoraphobia and phobias in general. welcome my 20's with drug and alcohol addiction. Rehab for year when i turned 30. Im now 4 years clean and sober and each year has got emotionally worse for me, when all the other addicts in recovery around me have been getting better. I guess drugs and alcohol was how i coped with it???? do you think???? My depression got so bad recently that i was sent to see few different psycs and they all came back telling me it was caused from underlying HPD. So i guess Im just putting feelers out there as I don't really understand. And I feel really deficient now. (This is about me not you so please don't take that personally.) Like how did you come to ACCEPT you personality disorder? And, despite all the horrible stuff I have read up n about HPD .. IS IT TREATABLE AND WILL IT GET BETTER??????? Hmmmmmmm. Would love to hear your thoughts and tips or anything and everything about it. Take it Easy, Nicky