So I'm Histrionic. What can I do?

Hi people. I'm new to this forum, however I was hoping you all might be able to help me out. I have recently discovered (much to my initial disbeleif) that I am Histrionic, (via a psych student/best friends diagnosis). Furthermore, I am male, (aparrently making me something of a rarity). Allow me to give you the basics of my situation. I am young handsome, intelligent, exceptionally capable, and full of potential. However, I have simply been unable to function as a successful human being since leaving school (2 years ago). Basically, now that I am removed from the constant praise of peers and teachers (be it for my sociability or academic merits) I can simply find no motivation to do all but the most basic of tasks. I have now come to understand HPD and why I am in the situation I am in. Nevertheless, I am still helpless. What can I do to lose this deadweight of a disorder. I want to go back to being superior and amazing. I really hate being so damn useless. But I am trapped in a cycle of sorts, wherein my current state makes me disinclined to go attention-hunting (thus making me feel more worthless and furthering the cycle). What are my options. How can I get back on top of the worlds, where I have been for so much of my life? I cannot find any treatment links anywhere on the internet. I am also on a low budget and could not afford a proper psychiatrist.

Below is a little bit about me and my condition to help you in your deliberation:

My symptoms include:

* Constant seeking of reassurance or approval- (I don't do anything if there is no potential attention-reward to come of it. What would be the point if nobody knew?)
* Excessive dramatics with exaggerated displays of emotions-(I always have been a drama queen...or king...or whatever. Note that this is often tied to enhancing or boosting the attention I will receive from any given situation).
* Excessive sensitivity to criticism or disapproval- (I simply cannot handle criticism, or even failure, well. No matter how fair or constructive it may be. I usually get defensive to mask how upset/weak I feel in these situations).
* Inappropriately seductive appearance or behavior- (In the 'guy' sense. I definitely am a ladies man, and am a notorious flirt. However, despite my flirtyness, I still have a tendancy to pick one girl and take our relationship way to seriously. Finally, I have found a wonderful girlfriend who also is taking the relationship seriously. So this is no longer a problem. Furthermore, she doesn't mind harmless flirting )
* Excessive concern with physical appearance ( I am not prissy, or affeminate, but I do put a lot of effort into my looks. Not to conform, but to create unique or bizarre attention-getting costumes, as I call them, whilst still looking damn hot. Also, I have an irrational dislike for ugly/fat people. I don't like having them in my life.)
* A need to be the center of attention (Definitely. However, I do not have the typical "I am insecure" crap-approach. I actually have a healthy superiority complex wherein I do, acurately, beleive I am better than nearly everyone, in most ways. I feel as though I am the only person in the world worth listening to, and as such get bored when the focus is dominated by lesser people.)
* Low tolerance for frustration or delayed gratification (I am 20 years old and I still have temper-tantrums when I feel I have made a fool of myself, self-failure. When I do not get attention I usually sulk, though.)
* Rapidly shifting emotional states that may appear shallow to others (Yeas, but not sincerely. I take whichever emotional state moves me closer to acheiving the desired emotion in the other party with whom I am with).
* Opinions are easily influenced by other people, but difficult to back up with details. (I am inclined to say no. However, though I am loath to admit it, the sad truth is that I do allow myself to be influenced from time to time).
* Tendency to believe that relationships are more intimate than they actually are (Every single girlfriend I have is 'the one'. It's insane. However, on the other end of the spectrum, if I do not respect a girls intelligence, and she is to easy to manipulate, then I enjoy toying with them emotionally, basking in their adoration, then tossing them away in the most satisfying and creative way that I can.)
* BACKGROUND: My mother died when I was 5 (of cancer) and my father is a very simple, friendly, emotionally awkward 'bloke' in the Army (In contrast to my artsy ness, intelligence, cultivated tastes, distaste for sport and other pointless justifications of my masculinity). He remarried less than a year later to a woman which I did not get a long well with, until eventually one of us had to go. I was kicked out of home age 16. Being independantly willed, the affair did not truly upset me all too much (beyond having my father pick my stepmother over his only son). Now I live happily apart from them, but require some kind of fan club to keep my motivation tanks full. My girlfriend can't help because her visa expired and she is overseas until I can afford to bring her back ( hopefully by the end of the year). What can I do?! Agh...

Have you looked up Narcissistic Personality Disorder as well?

I think you might fit the bill for a dual HPD/NPD diagnosis if you ever went in and got a professional evaluation with HPD being the stronger of the two.

Also don't they have a free type of psychiatrist or counselor you could go into see if you are that hard up for money?

Most developed countries in the world do have such a system set up so all people can be helped.

You should try to find that out.

The treatment for HPD I read is psychodynamic therapy and cognitive behavioural therapy and it takes from 1-3 years to treat.

yeah he definetly has npd as well :\

Hey thanks guys. I can indeed access free psych help via my Uni or the govt. However I am a little reluctant. I would prefer a cocktail of home-made drugs quietly swallowed in the bathroom followed by the alphabet backwards whilst in a headstand to fix the problem. Then I could get back to kicking arse without any suppositions af an 'ilness' or failure or a 'condition'. I kinda just want to change something and fix it. I have managed much much greater problems in the past, surely I can just stop wanting attention with the correct approach. Further, I took a look at NPD and I certainly fit the criteria. However, I am of the opinion that NPD is far less encumbering than HPD. I don't really see having an inflated ego as a major problem, if indeed a problem at all. In contrast, HPD creates a situation in which I am in need of attention. Facing a prerequisite which must be met by other people in order for me to succeed is most inconvenient. In the end, I suppose I must recognise that a quick fix is most probably out of the question. In which case, I will have to come to terms with getting 'treatment' for my 'problem'. I just don't like the idea though!