this cant be me

I have just taken an online personality test and the results say that i have low to moderate hpd. So I read what it had to say about the disorder and it does describe me fairly well but not completely. Yes, I like attention and yes I dress a bit inappropriate and yes i get bored easily. But most of all I am preoccupied with growing old and at 48 it is becoming a reality even though I look younger. I never thought of myself as having a personality disorder untill my current relationship caused me to seek information on personality disorders because the guy I am with seems like he has a screw loose. Now I am wondering if it is me who is unreasonable and at this point I am so confussed I could scream. He is driving me crazy with his lies and cold hearted behaivior and I cant seem to walk away from it. I have done things that I cannot belive and the last time we fought he hit me with his 18 wheeler tractor trailer. I saw my life flash before my eyes as he jumped down out of the cab ran past me and told his brother to move me out of the way so he could leave. He always ends up saying he is sorry and doesnt know why he acts the way he does but never changes. When I was younger I would have tollerated this about a second and would have ran so fast his head would spin. But I find myself needing to know that he understands what he has done wrong and apologizing for it. Every time I hope he realizes that he loves me and will be lost without me but the same things happen and he acts like i am psycho for being upset and the cycle continues. Why cant i break away from him and how do I know if it is really me that is wrong? He tells me that he cant go through life walking on eggshells and I feel like I dont ask him to. All I want is for him to treat me like he loves me.

"untill my current relationship caused me to seek information on personality disorders because the guy I am with seems like he has a screw loose."

HPD women tend to be intensely attracted and drawn to men with Anti Social Personality Disorder a.k.a psychopathy.

These men are pathological liars, masters of manipulation and predators to the core and have no conscience and no conception other than intellectual of what love and true emotions are.

An HPD woman's game is trying to get men to love her or a sense she's got the guy and he's conquered ie he wants her for a real and lasting relationship and then once she's accomplished this she loses all interest in the man.

With an ASPD the chase for an HPD will last forever as these men are highly paranoid and trust no one and have no love to give so obviously this behaviour goes very well with what HPD women want out of a man.