female HPD and Penis, dat link, my opinion

(of course i cannot represent all other hpds but i find it boring to explain that in every post, you know that it's my opinion and isn't proved whether it's hpd-common thing. all my posts.)

Ever since I decided to stop suppressing my sexuality, I've been open about all the sexual stuffs yea
and the thing is, I've been wondering about this for a while...

"Penis" is too important for me. in that it is so influential to my mind. It is almost weird if how much influential it is to my mind. I feel like I shouldn't be this way. Like the size, shape of penis is toooo important as a factor that influences my mind.(feel like i emotionally overreact to penis...)

It is absolutely not because of sex. Sex is irrelevant matter here. Just the penis is what I am talkig about. (I really think the pleasure you can get from sex with a man is not really affected by penis size. Though i've never had actual intercourse)

Say a man is handsome, nice, romantic bulabula.... but if penis is not impressive.... really .... ummm. (penis wouldn't really matter about loving/choosing a partner, if he is nice in other qualities such as personality&compatibility&look. What i want to talk about is... the influence of 'penis' on my mind.)

And I think the blatant reasons behind this are:

1. HPDs love novelty. Excitement. HPDs like thrills, excitement. and I especially LOVE 'big stuffs' like BIG cookie, BIG sandwich, BIG cake, BIG stuffed animals, 'abnormally big' size things super excite me. It's fun. and I think big penis simply give me this... childish excitement. Yea, childish excitement.

2. sign of love.... well the thing is, men do not get hard in front of someone who they find as totally unattractive. they especially do get hard when they are totally attracted to this woman. and kind of, hpds are simple, wanted to be viewed as sexually attractive, and if a man's penis is really hard and big i think, a woman can easily know 'oh this guy find me attractive'
kind of, you know what i mean? it's like "clear sign" may be the bigger, the better sign.


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i would really not mind a partner's penis size, if i love him more than any other man
but for hpds who easily get bored, something 'oversized' could always add some excitement

LOL after writing it i realized
it's something SUPER NORMAL

guys react in a dramatic way to big boobs, ass, even if they don't choose someone over such qualities(there are tons of memes about that for example)
and some girls are EXCITED by big penis as well
nothing like 'disordered'

and i found it 'inappropriate' about myself because for girls, society says, they shouldn't be too excited by such vulgar stuffs