Causes... what made me like this?

Just a few seconds ago, I never realized how I much I severed my friendship with my best friend until I finally got ditched for my attitude. I know the reason why he did that. And I officially accept it. But for some reason, I just can't understand it. Now only a few seconds later, I feel like some stranger to both him and myself. Obviously I would feel like a stranger to him. But I now regret my actions that lead to this. I know that I am wrong. I just can't understand why I cannot understand that I am wrong. But this post isn't about that... I want to know the causes of my Histrionic Personality Disorder. I need to know what caused is or else I going to crack up soon (believe me). Honestly, I do not know myself. P.S. I'm MALE. What caused this? Childhood trauma? Childhood bullies? Soon he'll be just another person I got along with for sometime in my life and then forget his name a few years later. Oh anyways, I am not telling a single detail of this to my psychiatrist or therapist. I'm sure they cannot help me with this. I have to solve this myself, but I need people's help. Seriously, a few seconds ago feels like years already. Please help me, thank you.

Unless you tell your psychiatrist and therapist everything, you may never get to the bottom of this. With their help, you can find the root causes of what has caused you to think and feel in the way that you do. Are you actually diagnosed?

Please speak to them - they're there to help. This is not something you can "cure" by your own efforts alone. Professional help can really make a difference.

masquerade wrote:Unless you tell your psychiatrist and therapist everything, you may never get to the bottom of this. With their help, you can find the root causes of what has caused you to think and feel in the way that you do. Are you actually diagnosed?

Please speak to them - they're there to help. This is not something you can "cure" by your own efforts alone. Professional help can really make a difference.

^^ this. you're only hurting yourself and impeding on your recovery by hiding such things from your T/P.

Yes, I am diagnosed. I know I should tell my t/p but it seems as if [she] (the lady me and my best friend have been arguing about in my past posts) is the only one able to help me successfully, which is why I only tell my problems to her, and not other people. She seems to make me feel a LOT better by comforting me and telling me what to do, and I feel better by talking to her whenever I have a problem, unlike psychiatrists who only gives you meds, and therapists who you don't really know. To be honest, she is quite an intelligent lady, after all, she can't be manipulated, which is why I like her. Although she's not a professional, it seems like she really knows how to handle these things. I mean, every time I have a problem, she comforts me, and again, I feel better.

But there seems to be a consequence of that, my best friends had ditched me because of my "only she can help me" attitude. But this post is for me to know several theories (since there seems to be no absolute cause) on my HPD. Thank you.

And that's precisely what I'm saying. You won't get to the root cause of your disorder without the help of a therapist.

It's fine talking to friends and it's great that you have a friend like this, but the problem with putting everything on a friend - your disorder, the causes of it, your feelings about it etc - is that she is not a professional, the boundaries will become somewhat blurred, her opinions are subjective, there is an emotional involvement and the friendship is likely to become somewhat one sided with huge expectations. This is a lot to put upon your friend. Yes, it's great that you have her support, but the support that you need from a therapist is different.

Your therapist will have undergone many years training, to a University Degree and beyond, in not only psychological theories and counselling methods, but in how to effectively talk to you in a way that encourages YOU to make your own discoveries, link the past with the present, and DISCOVER FOR YOURSELF YOUR OWN UNIQUE ROOT CAUSES FOR THE DISORDER. He or she will also relate to you in a way that no one else ever has before, and the relationship between you and your therapist will be quite in depth, thereby fostering an atmosphere of trust. Some therapists adopt an Integrative Approach in their work. That means that they may adopt the psychological theory that seems to apply specifically to you. If your therapist has a Person Centred Approach in their work, they will work by what is known as The Three Core Conditions, in which they use Unconditional Positive Regard, Empathy and Congruence (truth and transparency) in their work with you. The focus will be upon the relationship between you and the therapist, enabling you to talk in an atmosphere of acceptance and understanding from the therapist. If they are Psychodynamic in their approach, whilst also possibly using Person Centred methods of counselling, they will look at your childhood in depth, and enable you to recognise the root causes of your disorder.

As much as your friend means to you, she cannot help you in the way a therapist can. It might help you to continue to confide in your friend, but also to seek in depth therapy.

There are many possible causes of HPD, but your cause will be unique to YOU, and only a therapist can help you to discover it.