- so anyways, sleeping in my car and fighting with recruiters and writing cover letters... isn't that bad other than trying to find the 20$ every other week that is needed for basic survival.
I miss my corvette still, and miss having a flat bed, and maybe proper food to afford lifting on properly. ... ok I take it back, i'm not happier being poor as dirt atm, I'm just too tired to keep job hunting lately.
I am starting to question though if the forum full of mentally disordered people weren't right though about my family. ---->


Though I have been hired at 2 or 3 semi-decent job/career type related starts to jobs ... what I would call "real jobs" in the last 8 months. --- so all those people that read the research saying Histrionics don't have the "ego-development" to develop into "professional programs and careers" that's a bunch of crap. I don't think we have the mental tool set to deal with stupid people all day long and still have energy to work on our careers. At least, I don't.
----->>>> Lately I have really started liking the "block button", the "return with sarchastic comment button", the "randomly walk away from everyone in my life button", and the "not respond to normal emails just because I don't care anymore button".
----->>>> Think "leave and cleave" as if you were trying to chase some girl to marry her, so you "have to morally" throw out everyone in your life. ... It's kind of not bad watching all your family members' shape their lives up.
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Anyways, I have to go back to either playing video games or job hunting. I'm slowly getting angry enough on a daily basis to keep working all day long again. It's taken me a few years to get back to this point.
- Labor.