when i was 18, before i was diagnosed with hpd,
i was repressing my hpd symptoms, being alone etc
and i told to my counsellor
'there's something weird about me...
i hate food that are made in factory(things you buy at store) it gives me very lonely feeling,
i like to eat food at restaurant etc, or at least handmade and being sold.'
and counsellor said 'you want to keep in touch with people and try to feel love in that way!
i've got a quite many things like that,
and to think now i think it was related to hpd.
even eating food i'd choose to get attention, but even if there's not really much difference between attention amount i'd choose to eat 'handmade' bc that's more, human-related
so i think i accept attention=love subconciously