Fear

Two and a half years ago I lost someone very close to me, my grandmother. Since then I have been very scared about letting my parents leave the house. I am terrified of them being in danger. I hate when they have to use the car. I am afraid of them being in a car crash. This fear is really getting me down. The death of my grandmother has scarred me. I was really close to her out of all the grandchildren and now I'm terrified of losing someone else I really care about. I am an only child and I'm scared that I will be left all alone. My boyfriend at the time suggested I get help but I never did. In the end I just ended up pushing him away. We have since become friends again. He still says to me to this day that her death really changed me. It changed me for the worst. I cry most nights. I would never tell my mother because she has just got over her mothers death now. I don't want to drag it all up again for her. I don't know what to do.

I'm very sorry to hear about your grandmother. Your bf at the time was right - you do need help. Maybe like a counciller or something. It really will hlp, i know you probrarbly don't think it will, but give it a try, as im sure it will. Your still greiving, it's ok for you to cry, don't think it is a bda thing, but it may mean you are depressed. Maybe there is someone you coudl talk to, a friend, your old boyfriend maybe, aswell as a counciller for sure.
Hope things get a lil bit better soon.