Lost friendship with multiple people

I can't seem to keep friends for anything. Every time I try, I usually end up getting either subtley 'pushed out', or I do something wrong (that I have no idea I did) and end up getting screamed at.

This is the fifth time , and was with someone whom I was planning to date(whom for the time geing I'll call girl A{no offense to anyone here who is a female. I just don't want to give out names}). Anyway, Girl A has a friend who I'll call girl B. Initially, I wanted to date Girl B, Because of the typical things that happen on an emotional level when one falls in love(plenty in common, physical beauty, similar experiences), but then I told her something about me that just plain destroyed my chances with her(she said we were still friends, and we were). So I decided not to fall in love, and then it happened again when girl A said that dating me was a possibility. However, both of them just got out of relationships, and wanted some time away from all that. I gave her that, but apparently I've been acting rude to them. Girl A sent me a text yesterday, stating(and I quote): "O by the way theres no way i;m dating you and stop texting me and girl B"

I haven't heard from them since.

There is also several others that I havent heard from, who are in contact with girl A
Evidently I was a jerk, but I didn't know it until it was too late. They said that they saw that I was off! Why the heck did they do this to me!? Ugh! I know I'm a socially inept fool, but I don't know how to fix it.

Sometimes I just feel like people are so illogical that I'm ashamed to be human. Yes, I've watched human behaviors, experimented with telegraphy, delved into psychology, listened to my 'gut feeling', and of course "just accept that humans are illogical and that I am human", but that last one just makes it worse. Hardly any of it seems to work, and my over-thinking head always has some way to turn something positive around to make it look bleak!

Hi,

First, a humerous question: Is there a Mrs Odd?; or rather a Mrs Even?

My God that was a poor joke, but anyway... ...you can easily put a positive spin on what has been happening so far in your life. For example, you can view this pattern of acquiring friends and then 'losing' them as you learning about life or - even better - finding out where your particular niche is. I mean, if these people weren't right for you, then what would be the point sticking around? People fall out with each other because they are 'incompatible'. So, I am sure that there is a particular group of people out there that you WILL get along with. This is what happens in childhood, typically: Children drift from group to group trying to get a footing in life. I'm guessing that your childhood was marked by shyness?

Kevin

More like dumped in it. Most(if not all) of my life I've been a loner, and when I finally get something good going, I screw it up somehow due to my lacking of social skills. The trouble is, according to my school resource teacher, and my councilor, I've 'adapted' well enough. BULL S***! I need social skills training badly, and this situation proves it perfectly.


I Don't care if the medical idiots won't diagnose me, I've read the little red book, and I more than fit the criteria for high-functioning autism.

I have found that if you're lacking in soxial skills, it will obviously take a while to get to a point where you can be great at it, but also along the way people seem to come and go from your life. Please dont be too hard on yourself about this though. I've gone through so many people over the years since making the journey from being soxially anxious and a loner to being a bit more confidant and talkative; but - yeh - people will just come and go as you learn more about life, but also as you learn more about YOURSELF and therefore change yourself and your personality.

Makes sense?

You might have a PD. Check out that section of the board, there are plenty to choose from. The problem with PD people isn't just lack of social skills, it's emotional underdevelopment. Without understanding exactly what is wrong with you then you can't fix it just by trying to learn social skills, it's like trying to learn to say words when you don't even know the alphabet.

Im not sure if I do. I know I have multiple personalities, but I have total control over my body at al times, and I remember everything I do.

I've now begun to truly trust these neurotypicals, so now not only do I have an unstable psyche because of it, I've also developed dyslexia, and I can't think straight without killing my own thoughts and having an anxiety attack powerful enough to give me a heart attack.
Not only do I lack the type of friend I need(another ASD person), I also feel like everything in the world is against me, nothing can save me, and that I might as well kill myself now, because there's no point in continuing.


WHY THE F*** CAN't THEY LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE!?

It might be that we'll have to suffice as your friends for now. At least here you can be assured that people understand you. im just wondering what took you so long to reply here? I had assumed you to have just left to never return. im glad that you're back though.

Take care,
Kevin