What do I do?

I am so devastated that its soo hard to get up in the morning, eat, think clearly or anything. I haven't felt like myself for a single day and im so confused. I am terrified of forgetting my mothers voice and forgetting the memories of her. I am still shocked and I dont think Im ever going to be the same. I read one of the stages of healing is to accept your new environment. My new environment makes me sick and I long the entire day to live in my house and see my mom. Its a chain reaction and im so depressed that I cant make friends and im all alone. I just want to know what am I suppose to do

I don't know how to live in a world where my [mother/father] doesnt exist.
yeah that never really changes.

I've never lost a parent so i can't even imagine how hard it is on you. But what your supposed to do is... give it time. Don't not do anything tho, but still give it time. If you're afraid you'll forget the memories, make a scrap book or write a book of all ur favorite memories.
Do things your mom loved to do in memory of her.
And remember that your mom loved you, and she wouldn't want you to waste your life away now that she's gone. she'd want you to continue on and be happy.
Oh, and sometimes letting all of your emotions out helps. Try lying down in a quiet environment, and just think. sooner or later you may cry, and that's good. if you just let it all out, you'll get past it. in time you will get past this. maybe not past this, cuz getting past your mother isnt what you wanna do. it will help you accept that she's not with you anymore.

Dear thbkhd,
I agree with what zoax18 said.
This will take time.
I don't think you will forget your mom, but the pain you feel now will eventually diminish. It hasn't been but a few weeks since she died, and your world got turned inside out. The shock will resolve into peace. The longing to be home again will always be with you, and as you mature and go out on your own, will instill in you a desire to recreate the good things of your lost home, which is okay. You wont be with the family you are with now forever.
The scrapbook idea is good; you could create a virtual memorial for her.
http://www.memory-of.com/Public/createsite.aspx
One of many online memorial hosting sites. A small fee is usually involved.
I am glad to hear from you. You are one of the toughest persons I have ever met, whether in cyber-space or real life.