i lost my two babies and dog

Thats why I'm a basketcase now.

My new dog, never leaves my side and I think people want to take him from me or poison him all the time.

And I'm too old to have any kids now so my life is pretty much wasted and over with.

I got nothin' left to lose. Already lost it all.

as a result of losing my babies
now, i'm convinced that parents are better than adults without children.

even bad parents, have succeeded in life much better than great foster parents.

mentoring kids and teaching them is not the same as procreation.

If you don't have kids you're putting an end to thousands of years of loving parents raising babies all up into the point where YOU stopped it and ended it. Millions of years of evolution finalized in your failure to care enough about the human species and life cycle of ancestry.

I try not to think about it.


also, furthermore, sometimes I think my new dog is a reincarnation of my other dog, because it is same bloodline, and I made it happen. Like that movie pet semetary, or resurrection of Jesus because I pleaded with God to make it so.

these 3 events i mention are the cause of my neurotic lifestyle now.
i feel maimed. even though the truth is i've led a very cushy life, and still is quite cushy, i'm just a crybaby.

I'm very very sorry for your loss.

Have you spoken to a grief counselor?

You can get through this.


http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-5-stage ... ief/000617

I hope that things get better for you.

Hugs,

C68

oh yea i'm so sure
i can really tell anybody cares

babies are slaughtered every single day all around you and you don't care one bit

don't patronize me

Im sorry for the loss (

I am sorry that you are feeling that way. I would try to see a counselor or find someone at a church to possibly talk to. There is always a reason to live. Hope things have gotten better.

Do not be disappointed with life full, from another perspective it. You now have nothing to lose, and you're still afraid of anything.

Sorry for your losses. But on the other hand, I would say that the near-future isn't particularly rosey so not having kids is a vlid example of how we'd love them. Wars are being fought over oil and energy now, wars over fresh water will be taking place with just a few years. There's only so much of it available and with global populations growing meanins natural land has to be paved over to make places for them to live, supplies are dwindling. The massive aquifer under the lower-48 is almost depleted and will be soon. Sci-fi movies featuring enviromental calamity will be proved prophetic soon. Why bring children into a world when their lifespans will have them in a world at its own throat over resources?