Can anybody understand?I need a friend plz!

Im going through a real mixture of emotions & just feel like im getting to a point where my head will burst & my brain will fry!Its all pretty complex stuff & i have possibly just about pushed away all my friends & i just find it real hard talking to people without being judged & im a nice person just a tad misunderstood & so AAgghhhh! will anyoone help a lost soul?Will i ever be happy again?

are you grieving over something?
i am going through the pain of grief right now so if you have pain i can understand.
i am probably the most misunderstood person also, so definitely can understand that too.
maybe you can search deep within yourself to target what's at the root of this...

Iam going through a very similar period in my life. I have very serious trust issues, and have also driven away nearly all my female friends. My boyfriend will not allow me to interact with my male friends so Iam a little lost. When I try to make new friends with females it seems I like I struggel to communicate; even though I sincerly want their friendship. That is why I have came here. I dont know what Iam really looking for, but I know Iam not alone is this type of struggle.