Grief is consuming my life more than I want it to now

I wish I could understand Grief. But I just don't. I haven't been sleeping well. Yesterday, I burst out crying infront of my boyfriend.
I really miss my mom who I lost to cancer. It just doesn't make sense to me, that I have a dysfunctional family.

Dear Survivor,

I do believe that what you are going through is a natural process of death. In my own experiences with losing a loved one each process was a bit different. Some hit you hard right away and then there are those that are deeper and take more time. But, eventually you arrive at peace with your loss.

If I may ask, how long has it been since you've lost your mom? And how does your boyfriend deal with you expressing grief?

Regarding your comment on a dysfunctional family, I do believer that almost every family has it's areas where they are dysfunctional. I haven't known hardly any families that aren't dysfunctional in one why or another.

I think that perhaps moms are the toughest ones to loose. They have nurtured us and loved us before we can possibly remember.

Sweetngentle

Dear Sweetngentle:
I lost my mom to cancer on 2/11/06 (last month).
My bf tries to be very understanding. He's such a warm caring and
kind person. I guess its hard to understand to a point what a person is going thru w/grieving. I've started to have bad dreams and my IBS attacks laid me completely down in bed the last 2 days.
I've even dropped some weight w/out even trying to do so.

You're right about families. Mine is the type, that their lives are so out of control, that I have found that just staying away is the answer to me being sane and being able to be me. It's sad but I've tried numerous times to have a loving relationships w/them. But to my dissapointment, it's just impossible. Thanks for your input and for being a friend.

Survivor101