ailuj. wrote:I'm sad beyond belief, he was my best friend. I've had him for more than ten years and grew up with him.
I cant stop crying, everything reminds me of him.
I was at work when my mom called and told me he was gone, I regret not having a chance to say goodbye.
I'm not good with emotions, I haven't cried for a very long time. I don't know what to do.
((((ailuj)))) Very sorry for your pain & sorrow... In regards to being able to say goodbye, it's still incredibly painful, but I think it does help a bit & I feel better for having had that opportunity myself.
I lost my 11 year old kitty in 2008 due to an incurable disease. The medication only maintained his life for awhile, then stopped working altogether. I'll never forget the morning I woke up & he was in such a horrible state (so much fur loss, couldn't stand on his own, mewing in pain, etc...), I knew I had to finally take him (for the last time) to the vet. The vet let me hold him while they injected him & I told him how much I loved him and wanted to see him no longer in pain. He's now laid to rest in the family pet cemetery.
As part of my therapy, I made a scrapbook w/photos of little Teddy and took the opportunity to give my love to other kitties. But, I still mourn...