strong desire to be close friends

Hello, how are you? I have a guy friend and I really admire him in a non-romantic way because he's really cool, nice, and honest. Although, i'll be honest my admiration for friends is easily confused for a crush because I haven't had a healthy perspective when it comes to friends in general.

I have this inferiority complex to all my friends where I feel this constant need to impress them, I feel needy for friends, im just miserable when it comes to friends.

Anyway, this one guy friend in general, i feel the strong need to be close friends with him, but i don't think he wants to be close friends, just normal friends.

so how do i let go of the desire to be close friends with him, please help?

I tend to go through friends for the same reasons. I usually smother them til they avoid me. Don't worry about losing friends. Try to work on being yourself. Let me know if you come up with a good way to keep friends. I could use some help there myself.