is this GAD or somethign real?

Hi,

A psychiatrist i saw 3 years ago said i have GAD/OCD but its never bene this bad. I finished university about 5 months ago and ever since then things have happened to make me unbearably stressed and worried. I was starting to get alot better and I moved out from my house about 2 months ago to another house. As soon as i left the house i felt i had forgotten something, which i disregarded quite quickly as just a irrelevant thought. As days passed by i started to worry more about it and couldnt get it out my head. It became really bad, and i was really anxious. Eventually after a month i travelled 300 miles back to the house and used a spare set of keys i had to check every cupboard in every room, under the beds, under the sofa, in between the cushions, on top of wall unit etc and found nothing. I left and hadned in the keys to the landlord. After this though, i started to think perhaps i had hidden something in the fireplace. The thought nagged at me, but i was starting to disregard it when i realised i have a radiator in my old room and i never checked behind there. Something could be behind that. I thought perhaps i had something, hid it there and forgot about it. I worry about what it could be and its made me unbearably anxious, this anxiety is killing me. I keep asking myself why did i never check behind there before? i had over a year to do so when i lived there. How come i would hang clothes over the radiator to dry every few days nad never thought there was something there?

If there is really nothing there then why am i more stressed and anxious about this than i have been about anything else in my whole life? Doesnt the unbearable anxiety mean that there is something there?

Sounds like your psychiatrist is right hon, GAD is not hard to diagnose. I have had it for over 10 yrs likely now and right now the anxiety is a rare even though the symptoms pop up from time to time. I know with me there will be certain things that causes me to become anxiety ridden, but I rarely panic anymore and can talk myself out of anxiety etc.

Those type of thoughts that you are talking about when thinking you forgot something at your old place, or not being able to find keys etc... that's like when someone is leaving their house, driving away and thinking they left the coffee maker on or stove (which I do alot) but then I think to myself I was there, and I know it's off, it's irrational thinking, that's what anxiety makes you do, the constant nagging worry, that's when I have to use self talk (postive) to rationalize telling myself that there is nothing to worry about, everything is how it should. If I forgot something (like a key) then it's ok I can get another made if needs be...

Stuff like that can do wonders for it...


Just sounds like stress and anxiety from the move hon.
Just need to relax abit and try to think positively.