Am I just crazy ?

I won't go into all my past and stuff as I don't want to bore you. So I have a huge feat of drugs and medication it started when my doctor put me on anti depresents and I had really bad side effects and ended up in hospital, now I can't can't pain killers or any other form of medication.

Now it's starting to worry me eating food I feel like its not safe like its contaminated with drugs same with drinks, even things i touch, even a tiny mouthful something can bring on a panic attack, also I can't stand powder or seeing tablets,

I also feel like someone is going to inject me, I fear sitting down invade there will be a needle there. Sometimes I can feel a needle being pushed though my skin it's sO scary, any ideas or anyone have similar feelings? Thank you for reading


Besos