Can anyone please help me?

Hi there

I am an adult and I feel like I suffer from many disorders, I will try to tell you my symptoms or things that everyone notices "wrong" or "out of place" and things that I have noticed my self.

I have had a rough/traumatic childhood mostly but I will get to that later if anyone needs me to.

I am paranoid, I came to this conclusion after many of the people I know told me about what I do sometimes, I hear them saying something like Marriot and I immediately go insane thinking they said idiot, this is for the sake of example this didn't happen but something a bit worse did happen a few times in very sticky situations.

I am very bad with people, every time I am around people I get a lot of stress and feel horrible for no reason, I only know a few people that ask me to go somewhere with them, and I feel very bad when I am with them because I have bad thoughts about them and think they are manipulative or evil when they are in fact the opposite since who would ask me to go out with them if they didn't like me or wanted to manipulate me.

I have many nightmares, ranging from seeing people I know do evil things, hurting others, and I see sometimes people I trust being child rapists, and sometimes I see myself doing immoral actions. I get sleep paralysis a lot, I really mean a lot.

I get a lot of anxiety and stress and tend to miss work, that was when I was employed, and now I am a sloth, I use all my time at home, on the couch or on the bed. I waste the time playing games that are meant to waste time like minecraft and more.

For the biggest problem is that something is causing me to grind my teeth a lot, I have chronic constipation (for no reason, full body scan and says I am healthy, only problem is a few small stones in left kidney) I don't go to the bathroom for weeks at a time, this has bloated my stomach proportionately and this in turn caused me to be sad because I tried exercise and diet to trim some fat but to no avail, I lost nothing and my stomach still remained bloated and I don't think I would appeal much to the opposite sex, even if I can't even summon the courage to talk to them.

I get annoyed and angry very quickly these days, I didn't always be like that I was very calm and people always told me that I am very calm and nonchalant in my own way, now I go berserk over any simple thing and I have lost people I love because I did something bad in my state of rage when they only teased me over my hairstyle

I sometimes think I am crazy sometimes people call me crazy sometimes I believe that I crazy then remember the golden rule that if you think you're crazy, you're not crazy then I think that my mind is trying to trick me and that I am actually crazy.. I know... but that's how my mind thinks..

Social anxiety cripples me, I don't know how to treat this, I cannot afford a shrink, someone suggested to me a nerve doctor but I am not sure if my physical symptoms should lead me to a nerve doctor..

I would appreciate your help if you can help me, I honestly don't know what to do.

Frenchbaguet, it sounds like something is going on with your health, to me. Pleas keep in mind that I'm not a mental health professional or a doctor. You have to get more opinions from doctors about your constipation, that sounds very unhealthy. Ask them to give you a treatment. And tell them about the sleep paralysis too, there have to be meds/treatments for that as well. All your health issues must be causing you a lot of stress.
You can talk here as much as you like, please take a look through the forums and post. Talk about anything, including your childhood if you want.

I understand your feelings I think you should consult with a good Doctor immediately. He gives you best solution of this problem. Don't be late otherwise you will suffer so many health problems.