Emotional Toll.

Hello everyone.

I'm new here, and I came seeking advice.

I'm 17 and a junior in highschool.
My anxiety started in 6th grade and in 8th grade, after therapy and medication, it seemed to have gotten extremely better.
The first half of freshmen year was good anxiety wise.
The middle of freshman year, I found a wonderful girlfriend, we recently had our 6 month anniversary. Things were going so well!

So my doctor told me to go down on my medication dose. I take Zoloft.
Things started to get bad. Soon after I went down, my girlfriend revealed that she cut herself.
My anxiety skyrocketed.
I've gotten her help, I've been through hell to keep her safe. I've told her parents, she's seeing a therapist, and recently started medication.
But my anxiety is getting worse. I'm worried so much about her that my general anxiety is coming back.
I find myself anxious everyday when before I only got anxious once and a while.

I hate to think that she's the cause, but I know deep down that she is. I don't want to lose her, and I don't want to leave her, not with all the stuff that she's going through.
She's taking an emotional toll on me. But I love her.

But she does make me so happy when I'm with her. She's one in a million.
There's been so much drama between us. She doesn't like talking about her feelings and I do, which causes fights and stuff.

I just wish this was over. I wish I was free of anxiety. I don't want to break up with her, but I feel I have no choice, as it's taking a toll on my body and my mind.

I was just hoping I could get some advice.

Thank you so much.

Are you still in therapy? If so, have you discussed this with the therapist?

But she does make me so happy when I'm with her. She's one in a million.
There's been so much drama between us. She doesn't like talking about her feelings and I do, which causes fights and stuff.

So then where does the happiness fit in with the drama, unwillingness to open up, and fights?
You've gotten her help, which is admirable. Maybe it's now time to take care of yourself.