Whats your opinion i really need some help

I dont really know where to start but here it goes..... since i can remember i've always been considered shy but in the last 10 years or so its escalated drastically! I missed a lot of school my last few years of high school because i would throw up every morning do to what i now see as anxiety!
Well for the most part i dont throw up anymore but i find myself avoiding people on a daily basis! I remember being in school and being they typical Jock captain of everysport but not wanting any of the attention that went a long with it, i would go to watch my friends play but if i didnt get there earily enough i would never walk to the bleaches during a game because of the fact that so many people would look at me!
For the last 7 years or so if i've had a job interview or had to go to dinner or on a trip i've been the type of person that will think about it for every day leading up to the event! It completly consmes my life!This leads me to today where i receantly decided to get back in sports in way of Martial Arts and have now not been able to sleep or eat because i can't get the negative thoughts out of my mind! All of the uneasy feelings of highschool have come back and worts yet im so out of shape and am an extremly hard critic of myself and cant stop thinking about how much im going to fail, its really debilitating!
Its to the point where i just feel like leaving them with my 100 bucks and not showing up! I have 2 questions? What do you think is wrong with me and do you think I should go to my Martial Arts class tommorow even though i feel this way? If i go and my wosre fears of being so out of shape and embarassing myself come true will that be so traumatic that i wont be able to move forward anymore? I really want to get my life back! Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!

I have 2 questions? What do you think is wrong with me and do you think I should go to my Martial Arts class tommorow even though i feel this way? If i go and my wosre fears of being so out of shape and embarassing myself come true will that be so traumatic that i wont be able to move forward anymore? I really want to get my life back! Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!

Yes go to your martial art classes, avoiding the situations that make you anxious will just get worse and worse, to the point where you will avoid anything that resemebles that.

You are suffering from anxiety it seems like. Whether it's social anxiety or panic disorder. From what i've read it does seem like it is a problem. Have you been able to talk to anyone about your avoidance?

The fear of being embarresed wont actually occur, it's your negative thinking pattern that is causing you to feel uncomforable. Anticipatory anxiety is the worse anxiety, I think. Because even before you get to your destinantion you are already panicking, thinking up the worse possible scenerios before they even occur.

I can understand completely what you are going through with this. I at 15 suffered school anxiety I didnt' throw up like you did but i'd get extreme fear and really bad headaches. I never completed highschool.

I was diagnosed with GAD at 16 by a psychiatrist that I am seeing to this day over 8 years later. She has been a fantastic help, helping me learn to cope. Learning relaxation tecniques, mastering the postive self talk where I do not avoid situations that I used to.

Anxiety does personally pop up with me surrounding 3 things, but other then that I'm able to cope with it.

There are self help books out there that you should maybe read so it can show you how to deal with these kinds of situations...that may help. The book Don't Panic by R.Reid Wilson ph.d helped me tremedously, it changed my whole thinking pattern around with negative thoughts etc.

Another good book that will give you exercises to do to help you conquer your fear of anxiety is The Anxiety & Phobia Workbook third edtion by Edmund J. Bourn ph.d

Hope what i've written helps.
Look forward to hearing from you, to see how you are doing, did you make it to your class? Sorry it took so long to respond to your post.

Thanks a lot for the reply, i realy appreciate it! Well I did end up going and things were going well but I ended up emarassing myself by throwing up 3 times during the training! Now im so embarassed i can't even think of going back! The thing is i built myself up by telling myself that everything will be alright and I was actually fine for the first time in many years but now that the worst case scenario did come to fruition what do i do?

I'm sorry that you got sick hon. I've felt nauseated but i've never been sick like that.

Perhaps if you know that your tummy is that upset what about taking a gravol, eating some ginger?

I know that with me I have ginger root capsules that I take if the nausea is too bad. It's natural and better for you in then gravol is actually, my psychiatrist reccomended it.

IF you feel that the class is something you've benefited from and can continue to benefit from it then don't give up on going.

Yes you were sick, but everytime you go does not mean you'll be come sick even though i'm sure that is your fear in the back of your mind.

If someone asks you could always tell them it was something you ate etc.....

Avoiding situations that you are uncomfortable doing is never a good thing. Been there, done that and it made me 100 time's worse.. trust me ...

If I was you i'd keep going proof yourself wrong.
Try some postive self talk before going into the class.
Mind over matter, that is all it is. It's hard to do but the more you practice talking to yourself whether out loud or in your head it does wonders for the anxiety...

I do it all the time and can talk myself out of anxiety now, I talk myself out of it now before I even get panicky.

I haven't had a panic attack in....... I don't even know.

Hang in there.

Thanks for the reply again and you've actually convinced me to go again!!! I hope when i get these books i can get to the point where your at! Thanks again

Your welcome, I'm happy that I was able to help you with this.
Let me know how it goes, and what book you ended up getting. I posted a book list at the top not just in this thread but in the panic disorder thread as well...

There are some good resources there, same with if you read in the information threads, something might help you there as well.


Good luck with this, and keep us posted.

Ok, so this is easier said than done, but my advice to you is to try and learn to laugh at yourself. We are only human, and we all do embarrassing things on a VERY regular basis! But, what about trying to think of those things as human nature rather than big personal screw-ups? I recently entered a new field of work, which has been difficult for me. At first, I was very concerned with looking like a fool in front of hordes of people. But you just can't do that, because the reality is, they're all in the same boat!!

Always remind yourself that you are human, and that human error can be very funny, even when you're the one messing up! We all do it, and I've found people to be pretty forgiving. If you can honestly laugh at youself, you can breathe easy. We are all nerds, clutzes, bafoons, etc. in our own right, and don't let appearance fool you! The most gorgeous, "together" people in the world ALSO have anxiety, screw up big, etc.

Keep going with the Martial Arts! And next time you flub up a move, fall down, whatever, try giggling! I'm betting you're not the only person in your classes who is self-conscious about being there... GOOD LUCK!

To start out Ive also been a very stressful person even when i was little and I have been depressed. But my past two years were awesome, I mean I felt great I ate right... it was perfect... But then I wrecked my car, had an allergic reaction, found my cat dieing... etc etc i mean i had so many things happen in just one week... and the night after my wreck i was trying to relaxe and calm down just watching a movie and all of a sudden I felt my face just go numb. I had this terrible sensation of almost being in a different place, like i was out of place.. my heart was racing to a point where i finally went to the ER... They said I had a panic attack etc etc... yet to this day I do not feel like myself... i dont feel normal like i used too... I never even considered myself a happy person until now I realize how happy I really was compared to now... Ive been on Prozac before but I hated it.. it almost made me feel numb inside.. and then they tryed putting me on paxil but i wont take it.. Its just so many things happening all at once and yes im 18 years old just graduated.. Lots of life changes.. But why do I feel like im going insane, like im not in control of myself anymore? I cant enjoy things I dont see life as good like I used too... Does anyone have any advice at all? I would appreciate it soo much -Chris