disruptive eating disorder anxiety. please help?

hi.

i dont know what part of the forums i should post this so sorry in advance.

i hope i can get some advice and even a solution.

after reading i think i have generalized anxiety, like a small case of anxiety, as well as mild depression.

i have more of an anxiety problem. a disruptive eating disorder or something like that.

basically whenever i am out of my comfort zone i start to feel really nervous and always feel nauseous no matter what. i feel extremely sick in the stomach, ill, like i am about to always throw up, and needing to go to the toilet because i get stomach pains and churns.

this makes it so i cant really stomach any solid foods as well, making me truely physically sick as time goes on.

id like to explain that i am nothing of an anorexic or am self conscious of my weight, body or image. i dont control my eating habits or anything like that.

its just when i am say at a party drinking, or not drinking, going out on a first or even third date. i just feel so sick that if i eat something ill throw it up. i get all worked up on the fact i feel sick and nervous and that just makes it worse.

i have been told by friends to just overcome the thoughts and the feelings and force myself to eat, that i will feel better after eating. however i have attempted so many times and well i either throw up or my mind refuses to stomach solid foods, making me feel even more ill.

im at the age where i need to do something about this.i have deprived myself from a active lifestyle, missing out on socialising and meeting new people because i can never feel 100% out of comfort zones.

once i have such an episode, my body just shuts down, and has problems eating food. this can last for a week or even longer, where i wont be able to eat a full breakfast, lunch or dinner. it will either be at several times during the day i am so hungry that my mind forgets about the sick feelings and so i eat something so i can get by. at random times of the day or i end up becoming so sick that i can only drink liquids without wanting to throw up.

when i am comfortable, in my home, alone, or with people i have became comfortable with entirely, i eat fine.

a week of not eating regular meals, the next week i could just become normal again and eating anywhere is not a problem.

a few personal examples is meeting a new person, going out on the first date and for the whole time feeling ill and trying to hide it.
going out and visiting the girlfriend and mealtime at the house and the whole time there not feeling healthy, feeling ill, and having stomach churns.

and everytime i go see this person now, who is my ex, i get the same problems. and once i am back at home, the problem slowly dies down and i can eat fine again, sometimes in a few hours sometimes having to recover slowly over a few days eating little by little each day until i am able to eat healthy again.

going out to parties, the same thing. starts of with nerves, stomach churns, the thoughts of feeling ill, physically being ill, all while trying to pretend that you are helthy and fine.

i am a slender body weight, healthy, underwight im pretty sure according to the BMI(body mass index) but like i said i eat healthy when im "normal" and i never put on weight even if i eat lots of food, exercise and eat food that should make you gain weight.

i dont throw up intentionally or forcefully, and i barely ever do because i try to control the sick feelings.

i have tried forcing to eat

i have come to find that drinking liquids, water, smoothies, fuit shakes, yogurt, anything that was solid and is blended into a liquid i can consume fine in the problem situations.

and i have no problem eating watery foods like watermelon, celery, cucumber, tomatoes etc..

i am thinking about seeing a doctor or something to find a way to overcome this problem and even get rid of it for good.

i am just expecting no useful advice coming from the doctors though.

just came home from a party and i havent eaten properly since this morning. and i feel ill and i tried to eat before and i felt sick afterwaards again.

i have googled eating disorders, anxiety and i have not found anything that matches what i am going through.

apart from this problem i live a happy lifestyle and enjoy and feel good socialising and meeting new people.

i am really worried that i will damage my body if i keep living like this.

what is wrong with me?

Thanks

J.

Hi, J.! Yah, a regular doctor might not be able to figure out what's going on, but you do have to do everything you can to get treatment. So, ask your doctor where you can find a good psych or look for someone who deals with both anxiety and eating disorders online or in any way that you can. Also, maybe it wouldn't hurt to get checked for some kind of physical illness that might be causing the nausea, at least in part.
I get nauseous when I'm very anxious too, by the way, but it's not this common for me.

You have social anxierty, it can get out of hand , like in my case i took to many benzo,s to calm me , i became addicted , i still am many years on. your stomach turn,s inside out sort of feeling an you need the toilet bad , with a case of the trot.s . I used to be sick aswell, you will never get fat thats for sure anxierty burn,s the weight straight off.you need to see your doc about CBT therapy as i dont think he will give you benzos.

Hi, jim, definately sounds like anxiety, mostly social and it does cuase stomach upset bigtime. See your doctor, they will probabaly first prescribe anti-anxiety med of some kind and maybe something for your stomach. And yes therapy, like cNT is a must. Don't wait or be ashamed, it happens and it needs to be treated, just like any other illness: diabetes, high blood pressure etc.
Good luck.