What My Anxiety Is Like

I am OCD, agoraphobic, acrophobic, I have Borderline Personality Disorder. I am afraid of butterflies. I am afraid of large dogs. I am afraid of numbers. I am afraid of fat cats that may come and steal my breath as I sleep. I am afraid of people. Certain people make me want to puke. I am afraid of tomorrow, I am afraid of today. I am afraid of life, I am afraid of death. I have panic attacks at night, because there are too many windows in the house I am staying in. I have panic attacks whenever I don't know if my fiance is alright or not. I freak out over everything and worry about everything. I have to do practically everything the same way every time I do it. If not, then I have a major freakout, because I am afraid something will happen to him. I am taking an herbal sedative- valerian, to help with this, but it doesn't really help that much. Whenever I freak out, it is like that Lou Reed song, Waves of Fear.

((((((((Koco)))))))) Did you see a professional about this? You have to get some proper treatment, it must be really tough for you. Do anything to remind yourself that you are safe and so are your loved ones. Keep something that reminds you of someone you love or something that calms you down with you at all times.