Turning somewhere

I'm not sure where to turn, so I turn to the internet. Typical of me. But my (well-adjusted) friends don't understand, they ask me "What are you so anxious about?" as though there has to be a reason. And I'm uninsured, so therapy is not an option right now. In a couple months, maybe, but for those couple months I have to go it alone.
I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and depression a decade ago. And, with therapy, I learned to deal with it. And after getting out of those rough adolescent years, I thought I was alright. I had been off my meds for years, and when things got rough, I coped like a champ. But I recently got back into classes, and all of a sudden everything was just like before. I knew that I was stressed about school, before, but that wasn't surprising because I was stressed about everything else too. But my mother always pushed me so hard to get perfect grades, and I've carried that, even though the classes are easy, even though every time I worry about an assignment thinking I'm going to fail, I get an A anyways, I still panic. I didn't realize how much of it was centered around schoolwork, or I never would have tried this without getting myself in therapy first.
It was so hard to admit it to myself. I have a problem. I was afraid that admitting it would mean that I'd become like my mother, who let her anxiety control her life, let it be a reason to avoid even trying. But because I wouldn't admit it, it just kept getting bigger and bigger, controlling my life more and more. I need to fix this, and I'm afraid. I was "that crazy girl who was thrown in the looney bin" for three years in high school and I don't want to carry that stigma anymore. I don't want my boyfriend to have to warp his life and personality to avoid setting off my anxiety. He would, because he loves me, but... I don't want that.
Any advice for how to hold out for a couple of months while I wait to be insured?

Theobromine, you have to get support in order to get through these 2 months. I'm glad you found this place. I'm anxious about school and being in groups of people too. I feel judged and like I don't belong there. Maybe the anxiety you're feeling has to do with the way your mother must have treated you. Try not to let her trigger you, when you're feeling sensitive. You will not become like your mother, you're a different person and you're going to handle this well.