over reacting easy, paranoid, overthink, worried way to much

Hey everyone, im really sorry if i posted this in the wrong part of the forum, im brand new here and im sooooo glad i came across this board because i think i will get really good advice. Im really bad at explaining things so im going to try to do the best i can to get this out, sorry if it gets confusing at times. so lets get down to business.

This has been going on for about 2 years now. I have be come a really really worried person. I have a really really low self-esteem now and it seemingly gets worse as the days pass. Its gotten to the point where people around me are noticing it and commenting on it. Ive really become a negative person. I dont have hopes for anything good to happen, i almost cant get happy and i dont think ive relaxed in a long time. I wake up in the middle of the night soaked in sweat and to my understanding thats from worry about things as you try to go to sleep but i could be wrong. I always feel tensed up and worried. I worry about everything and anything. I am REALLY paranoid. Its at the point where something as small me sending out a text to a friend who ive known all my life and him/her not sending it back makes me think they are ignoring me and have decided they hate me and i just come up with these crazy assumptions that i know are not true but while i say that i still freak out and refuse to believe that. Im really really scared this could get worse, and if it gets worse i dont know how im ganna be. Im not in the greatest shape mentally now. I had a (to what i thought was a breakdown might now be) a few weeks back after some things happened. My heart rate was sky rocketed and i was sweating like i just ran 40 miles. My hands were shaking. i was shot of breath. And it was really over something that i blew out of proportion and everything is fine now with what happened. I really read into things waaay to much and completely make things the total opposite of what was actually said.

The only times im not worried about things and all of the above is when im either at a show or playing music. Other then that its 24/7 craziness in my mind. Im going insane because everything is driving me nuts. I also cant explain what is going on that good and the way i just explained it i feel its that good but its the best i can do. If someone can give me any sort of advice for how to get over this or cope with things id really really appreciate it. I am probably missing things in there. im just worn out of typing.

Hey- I think a lot of people can relate to how you feel. I personally think my brain works too fast. Im not extremely intelligent but I get by with moderate effort. I have always had to tell myself to sloooow down. my handwritting is a mess bc i cant move fast enough. I do a lot of backspacing while typing bc im always writing the next word before i finish the one im typing bc otherwise ill forget it.... anyway, the point is... Our brains are amazing things. we have to learn how to harness that power. If you are over analyzing something or worrying, STOP. Practice this when you are not at your worst. Stop thinking about silly things that don't bother that much first. then try it when you really need it.--- If you think it's impossible to stop you are wrong. I have seen the most severely disabled children harness this skill. You have to start small. I first realized I could do this when I tried sitting Indian style and breathing. NOTHING ELSE. If a thought enters your mind acknowledge it and push it out. If it refuses to leave acknowledge it is there again and again until you don't process it again. Focus on the sound of your breathing and the rhythm of your body.

How old are you? Do you do any drugs, legal or not?

Im not saying this will cure you. it sure hasn't cured me but it has helped a few times. Once you build up a set of tools to use you will be better able to deal with anything!

Hope you the best.

im almost 19, and no i dont do any drugs nor do i drink, not my thing and i never plan on doing it.

The Janitorc17 wrote:im almost 19, and no i dont do any drugs nor do i drink, not my thing and i never plan on doing it.

Yea, I don't drink or do drugs either. You sound like one of my old friends, when you get older please don't get in the habit of doing drugs. It's terrible to see friends become dependent on them. Are you seeing/talking to anyone about all your anxiety? I'd highly recommend you find yourself a therapist if you find yourself unhappy because of it. It makes a world of difference when everything isn't the end of the world. Play some fun music and get a date down to ask someone about finding a therapist.

Come back for some support from me or the rest of the gang here at the psychforums.

If your like me asking is one of the hardest things for us. *shaking as we walk, cold hands and all* I did it by a somewhat anonymous email to a therapist asking for advice. Then went to see her. So do what ever your comfortable with.

Have a great day dude! *hug*

yea, ive been around enough people who have done drugs or currently do them and i never will. seen to many people ruin their lives from it and become really dependent on it.

im not going to a therapist right now, im considering it for sure. I probably should at least give it a try, a friend did it and he said it helped a lot. I just kinda wanna do it secretly cause i dont want anyone in my family to know. plus i cant afford one right now. i know once the holidays come and im alone, ill probably start getting worse again and thats probably going to be the time to go to a therapist. if i can get the money i will do it more then likely.

It does help a whole bunch. Just be careful not to give yourself excuses not to find out more information and eventually get a therapist. If your in college then you should be able to get one pretty cheap on campus. If not then go through your parents health insurance, you should be covered under them I would assume. To tell you the truth I was embarrassed to get therapy so I found our insurance and started seeing a therapist without asking my parents first. They were fine with it, worried but ok... although I'm paying about $23 every other week for what my dad's insurance doesn't cover. Kinda lucky in my case I guess.

Let me know how your search progresses. Try and find out some information, maybe find out who your friend see's.

I think if you have anxiety you must express all your nerves on something. As for me, smoking is really calming.

You've described me. I've felt that way since my early teens. I'm almost forty now. Seen a therapist although I didn't continue with the therapy. I need to sort out my issues of which there are many. It really blows my confidence, and after dealing with what you have gone through myself for 25 years and pushing myself to the limit with cognitive therapy it gets wearisome. I should go see a therapist again

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