Anxiety Issues

Hi...
I believe that i have recently discovered what has been going on with me the past few years... at first i thought it was because i was Hypoglycemic & Anemic but after changing my diet etc nothing changed. The doctors couldnt figure out anything that was wrong with me, i was tested for everything..including HIV !!! All results came back clear..as usual which leads me to my point... The only other idea i have is anxiety.

I do get nervous about certain situations. At the beginning of this year i had a few rough months, i was constantly nauseous, feeling dizzy, the thought of food would make me want to vomit (i do not vomit very often, i usually don't let myself) even a sip of lemonade would make my mouth water up, i didnt eat for 6 days, I couldn't sleep very well, constantly depressed and just wondering what the hell my purpose in life is! If im going to feel like this the whole time then what is the point. Don't get me wrong, im not suicidal but have had thoughts before, i would never do something like that but the thoughts are there. I have still not had a clear answer on what is wrong with me but i have most of the anxiety symptoms...

I get very nervous before i do most things, nervous for me is, almost like a big rush of butterflies all through your body at once and sometimes i get quite warm then the nausea feeling in my stomach comes and i cant eat, i get shaky and feel like i could go do number 2 even i had 5 minutes before LOL that's a little embarrassing, this occurs even right before im about to leave work to go home to my bf, right before we go to the movies, or a friends house.
I feel pressure around my temples, racing heart beat, goosebumps when im warm, faint & dizzy, i feel really run down and i cant get out of my own mind, jaw is usually clenched with out me noticing, cry easily.

Im getting to the point where i just want myself to shut the hell up in my mind because that is where all the trouble starts and im sick of listening to the constant never ending chatter
. i think i need help to control the way i think about certain situations, especially concerning my BF. I have low self esteem and it doesnt help that my bf is gorgeous inside and out and i am not, i don't know what he sees in me (neither do half the other girls in this town!). I know he loves me and has not and wont ever cheat on me but i cant help but feel like crap when im around pretty girls, i feel really uncomfortable when my bf even says hey to another girl if she is pretty. ( this is not something i want to feel, and i do not hate myself, or hate anyone else). I do get jealous of other girls only because my bf and i have been together since we were 15 (now 20) and during our high school years almost every girl he developed a good friend relationship with they would turn around and decide to tell him they they are in love with him (he usually ends the friendship at this point, by his own choice not mine, i guess there are some good guys out there who actually care)... this is very hard for me to deal with, i feel like i do not have the mental strength to cope with that. So now my bf usually doesn't become to good of friends with other girls, which helps, but there are still the odd girls that try to ruin things, i believe this is where my anxiety may have started as it is worse when the issues are about my relationship with my bf. I do not want to feel uncomfortable or jealous about who my bf is friends with, i don't want to care if he talks to another girl, he should be allowed to and he shouldn't miss out on having friends just to make me feel better...... i just really dont want to lose him because i cant keep my mind under control!

I hope you can help, thanks.

Hi, lamb89! Not being able to eat for 6 days and being depressed/anxious for so long sounds pretty extreme. I think you should try to see a psych or a therapist and tell them about this. It's so nice that you have an understanding boyfriend!
Also, depression and anxiety can go hand in hand. I'm not trying to scare you, but it would be a good idea to see a professional.

It looks like you too facing with the same problems like me.At the beginning of this year i had a few rough months, i was constantly nauseous, feeling dizzy, the thought of food would make me want to vomit. This made me fed up and i was fraustrated of my life. Then i started taking the advice of doc and took the necessary meds.