i think I have anxiety.

I'm almost 100 percent positive I have anxiety, but I can't tell how serious it is.

First of all I'm 19, I never had a job because I'm deathly afraid of it. I was made fun of a lot in grade school up till 8th grade, because I was never that great in school (esp math), and I'm so afraid to work anywhere because of dealing with numbers. I'm afraid I'm always going to mess up and people are going to get disgusted with me. I want a job so bad, I want to do so many things really badly, but I'm so afraid of things.

Sometimes I get really worried/sad/depressed and I get hot and my chest will hurt and I breath weird. It doesn't happen all the time...I think there might be a cycle. A cycle like I will be depressed/worried and freak out, and then I will be sort of ok..but I'm usually ALWAYS worried about something. I felt like I was having a heart attack.

My hands will randomly get numb and I won't able to move them..its like a lot of tension or something.

Its hard to talk about this right now, because I'm not sad at the moment, and I feel like I'm just making it all up, but I know I'm not. It happens to me. I'm always worried about my future, I'm worried about people I love dieing, school esp., getting a job, driving scares the crap out of me, my bf. I don't want to worry though! Inside I'm a happy person, I have a great family, a good bf. I'm lucky for the most part...but I worry! I never feel good enough.

Theres times when I feel like I'm having an outer body experience or something, like I'm not in reality or something. It definitely happens when I'm going through those episodes with the breathing.

I don't know, sometimes I think its just little panic attacks or something...but there have been times I just really felt there was something wrong with me. Its just weird because it happens every few months or something.

I forgot to mention that I think constantly...ALWAYS...its to the point where I can't take it anymore..because it leads me to worrying about things, mostly about things with my bf and I feel like its making me paranoid about things. Like I said right now its not happening..but it does, last week it just happened. I had a nervous breakdown because I found something of my B/Fs ex's..and I had a breakdown..I couldn't eat, my diet is all messed up now. It was so stupid because I shouldn't care about things like that. I don't know what is wrong with me really.

Hey

I know exactly what you are feeling because I was like that a few years ago (I'm 24 now). Have you told anyone close to you about any of this? Im' sure you've probably told your boyfriend - did he take you seriously?

You might not like to but I think that going to a consellor would help you; or even a GP. I think you may be able to have medication prescribed to you that can help with your 'racing' thoughts ("...forgot to mention that I think constantly...ALWAYS...").

Kevin.

Hey Kschaf

From my experience and from what your telling me, I can safely say that you are suffering from a heightened and prolonged level of anxiety which is leading you to feel that way that you are, but let me tell you some stuff to make you feel better.

Everything that you are currently experiencing is everything that I have experienced with my anxiety disorder/

~ Constant thinking
~ Derealization, which is the out of body experience your having, it feels as though your detached from reality but you know that reality is there, don't worry your not going crazy, this is a perfectly normal reaction when you have prolonged anxiety.
~ The depressed emotion is because your body is feeling exhausted, anxiety is an exhausting thing to have.
~ I couldn't get a good nights sleep, I don't know whether your experiencing that or not, this can lead to chronic fatigue.
~ I couldn't get interested in anything, again, this is just a result of too much anxiety.
~ The fear of having a job is just a fear that’s all, and you know what, that’s where anxiety is born, it comes from the fear of things.

But anxiety is a fight or flight response, I remember telling my psychologist that I felt that I was under water and all I wanted to do was come up for a breath because I was running out of air.

Anxiety is a medical way for saying I have a fear of something, biologically fear is a good thing, humans need fear to keep themselves alive, that’s all anxiety is in the end, its a short burst of intense emotion and fear to stop yourself from coming to harm, if we didn’t have it god knows what society would be like.

But an anxiety disorder, is a prolonged fear reaction, meaning that you feel a certain level of fear all the time, it may be mild at times then it may be intense at time, but having that constant feeling of fear leads to your anxiety.

The hard thing is that no one around can see it so it’s hard to get people to understand and sympathize with our condition. So I went and saw a psychologist to talks things over, my anxieties were stemming from an environmental situation, that is, I knew that when I took myself out of the situation that was causing my anxieties I would get better.

My advice to you is to see a psychologist and talk things over, find out what the deep root and cause of your initial fears are.

But let me tell you that you are a perfectly normal person, your not going crazy as much as it may feel, don’t worry I have been down that road also and there is recovery on the horizon, just stay calm and start to work through things one step at a time.

kschaf wrote:I'm almost 100 percent positive I have anxiety, but I can't tell how serious it is.

First of all I'm 19, I never had a job because I'm deathly afraid of it. I was made fun of a lot in grade school up till 8th grade, because I was never that great in school (esp math), and I'm so afraid to work anywhere because of dealing with numbers. I'm afraid I'm always going to mess up and people are going to get disgusted with me. I want a job so bad, I want to do so many things really badly, but I'm so afraid of things.

Sometimes I get really worried/sad/depressed and I get hot and my chest will hurt and I breath weird. It doesn't happen all the time...I think there might be a cycle. A cycle like I will be depressed/worried and freak out, and then I will be sort of ok..but I'm usually ALWAYS worried about something. I felt like I was having a heart attack.

My hands will randomly get numb and I won't able to move them..its like a lot of tension or something.

Its hard to talk about this right now, because I'm not sad at the moment, and I feel like I'm just making it all up, but I know I'm not. It happens to me. I'm always worried about my future, I'm worried about people I love dieing, school esp., getting a job, driving scares the crap out of me, my bf. I don't want to worry though! Inside I'm a happy person, I have a great family, a good bf. I'm lucky for the most part...but I worry! I never feel good enough.

Theres times when I feel like I'm having an outer body experience or something, like I'm not in reality or something. It definitely happens when I'm going through those episodes with the breathing.

I don't know, sometimes I think its just little panic attacks or something...but there have been times I just really felt there was something wrong with me. Its just weird because it happens every few months or something.

I forgot to mention that I think constantly...ALWAYS...its to the point where I can't take it anymore..because it leads me to worrying about things, mostly about things with my bf and I feel like its making me paranoid about things. Like I said right now its not happening..but it does, last week it just happened. I had a nervous breakdown because I found something of my B/Fs ex's..and I had a breakdown..I couldn't eat, my diet is all messed up now. It was so stupid because I shouldn't care about things like that. I don't know what is wrong with me really.

The best thing to do is visit your family doctor, get yourself a thorough examination, explain to him what you have been going through and ask about therapist recomendations. How severe is your problem with mathmatics? belive it or not there is actually a learning disorder associated with math, I know because I have it! My school work was always average but for some reason I had great difficulty with math, only later when i started studying psychology did I find out I actualy met the criteria for mathmatics disorder. This can also be whats causing, or perhaps increasing your anxiety.

Try to go to your doctor for consultation.

Stresses, depression, anxiety this type of mental health issue are now very common issue for us. If someone is suffering from this type of issue they should consult with a doctor for this and take some medication. I’m also suffered a lot from this type of mental health problems and my doctor prescribe me xanax for this, and it worked .they also can try it I think it may help you…You can find more information about xanax at *edited by moderator- sorry, we don't allow pharmacy links here*

Hi. I have the same thing. You put perfect words to it. I think you have anxiety. And I think I do. But I can't go to a doctors. My mom won't take me serious. Anyway. I don't think medication is neccessary. That might be a fear you have too if you worry about toyur future. You may thin that you will become dependent on them. MAybe not I don't know. BUT there is a GREAT book that helped me. I was soooo close to overcoming it so close. But I read a can at work that I use. (paint can) that said it could cause permanent brain damage. Well now I'm scared that I don't have anxiety I'm just brain dead... anyway the book is "PANIC AWAY" try it. It's pretty cheap. Most books about this kindastuff are hndreds of dollars. this book is only like 75 or something. I know it seems stupid to spend money on this, but look at it this way, you either spend thousands of dollars on medication and therapy or you can spend this money. It's worth it for even the hope of getting rid of it. Just think back to how much you miss your old self. And imagine the anxiety being gone. And it's only 75 bucks. Sorry. I know it sound like I'm convincing you but I know when I found the site online I didn't want to buy it because thats 75 dollars what if it doesn't work?? But he will refund you if it doesn't work. I say you should give that a try before you get involved with medication. But that's my opinion. If meds are the way yo want to go then do what you think is best.

hi,

I know your problems and i am too 21 now and i have too the same fear in mind like Anxiety really makes a human feary and nervous. It takes over the mind and pumps in awkward thoughts like, who's watching you, what are they thinking about me, what should I do? or how to talk with them. This is quite evident with anxiety disorders, as I am one of them. I would just stop thiking of these situations and just try to be brave!