Panic attacks

I have panic attacks coming on and off and it happens everytime when I am under a commitment or routine..
This time I think it happened because of a job related thing and I don't know what to do.. I am always feeling my brain is blind and my heart is constructed..
I also feel I lost memory of many things around me like my house , my friends, my belongings, my room and everything.. I blame my job for it but it was not that..
It feels like I am unable to connect with myself no matter how hard I try when I try hard I feel depersonalized and more disconnected like a voice saying myself don't try hard or don't act hard you will never feel natural..
It's so stressful and frustrating to not be myself and feel like I am in the edge of something and will fall down at anytime. I am scared of everyone and hypervigilant about surroundings I feel I will be kicked out from my house for losing job and or shamed or humilated for being unemployed or even the family may call cops on me for being a Burden.. I am so panicky right now.. that my deep fears are turning on and I don know what to do..
I also feel afraid because my face appears so uneasy, stressed out, and afraid or painfull all the time which is giving me very down vibes. All and all I feel like so uncontrollable and this all is so big...
I also feel little bit chest pain..

Snaga wrote:Well, I find work particularly stressful also.

I constantly have to take a mental step back, and try and back off my anxieties. They can only fire me. That is the worst thing they can do, and then I will cross that bridge when it happens. Until then, I have to try and make myself understand that my anxiety can and will find the worst possible outcome and scream that at me, no matter how unlikely it is that worst thing would ever come to pass. If it does, then I'll deal with it then. Until then, I have to try and remain at least a little calm, lest it drive me insane.

Are you currently taking anything for the anxiety? Or seeing anyone for it?

How do you back off.. I still don't find ways to relieve my anxiety when it comes.. I am sort of stuck in a loop of helplessness.. even though taking anxiety meds help to ease it sometimes but I don't like the idea of taking meds everytime a panicky situation arises.. what else I can do to control my anxiety..