Constantly in Fight Mode

Been thinking about this lately.

I suffer terribly with anxiety and it's mainly because I live in fear of losing my job.

This might seem a bit odd to some people but I find it really difficult to get along in mainstream society.

Anyway I feel that because of my anxiety and the whole "fight or flight" thing, I'm constantly in fight mode. I see a problem and I have to deal with it head on.

This is an issue because I'm misunderstood as being aggressive but I don't know any other way around it.

What do I do? I would love to change this way of being.

I used to live in near-constant fear. I told myself that I didn't care anymore, just so the feelings of vulnerability wouldn't get to me. It was a stupid defense, but was all that I had at the time.
Apathy didn't help me, it wasn't who I was and I don't think that it ever worked to my advantage to think in this way.

I did get mental health treatment after I quit alcohol. The doctor put me on an antidepressant that was also an anti-anxiety medication. Alcohol no longer quenched the panic. It had stopped working for me.
The meds did stabilize me so I could listen, decide and act (mostly) appropriately, instead of always reacting to everything by first instinct.
It did take awhile to work on my brain chemistry. There was no instant relief. I had to change both my perceptions and behaviors. I had to retrain myself and choose a fresh identity from bits and scraps of the old Wally. I tried to hold on to the good bits.

Fear of losing irreplaceable things is still a very real fear, but I have to trust the Creator and Her plan for me while I am here.
I tell myself that if Plan A doesn't work, try a Plan B. You can't totally be prepared for every contingency, but it helps if you have a seamless compromise or back-up Plan in mind.
In the stress of today's world, having a 'fight or flight mode' really isn't such a bad thing. It just shouldn't consume us or have us in a constant state of war.

Breathe deeply.
Trust the system.
Best of luck to you.

I find anxiety really hard because I never had anxiety until a couple of years ago. I think it's my age as well sometimes.

Like I've spoke to a few of the lads (it's always men) at work who are about my age and they describe going through a similar thing but for different reasons though.

Sometimes I also say to myself "###$ it" but it doesn't work because I have to keep going and as long as I keep on going the I have to keep on fighting.

Maybe this is what's normal Wally.

Thank you for your help.

Anxiety is hard for me as well. One thing, and I hope this might help, that I've started to work through in therapy, is trying to replace negative thoughts with positive ones.

It's hard when you go through anxiety, and having OCD myself, probably makes it harder.