GAD & Emotional Flatness.

I'm 17 & have suffered ongoing anxiety since I was 12 (diagnosed w/ GAD at age 5.) I worry about stuff like dying, the world ending, etc. I've had problems with emotional flatness since I started medication when I was 14. It got worse when I was on Risperdal. The medications did not make my anxiety go away; they just made me less reactive & affected by my emotions and more emotionally flat - but still generally miserable. I haven't taken any medication in a year, but continue to feel emotionally flat. I don't seem to care about anything anymore and I can't cry or feel sad. I've also developed problems with memory and thinking & life feeling unreal. I'm wondering if there is a way to get rid of this problem, because medication obviously didn't work.