Feeling paranoid and anxious after engaging in BDSM

Hi so I have been feeling very guilty since I have tried BDSM a few months ago. Although I enjoy the session, I started to fear that my friends and family will find out. I started to think that maybe some of the pictures will be leaked and I am so scared about it. It had become so serious that whenever my friends or strangers give me a glance or stare at me for a while I feel extremely uncomfortable and thought it was because that they saw my pictures online and knew about it. I started to think people were talking behind my back too. I know that was probably paranoia but the fear is so intense that I sometimes cannot concentrate. Please help and give me some advice! Thanks!

Can you talk to your BDSM partner about this? Or are you in an exclusive relationship? Do you have mutual trust?

It sounds like your partner is in control of the pictures? Unless they’re on social media, I think it’s unlikely your family is hanging out on fetlife or someplace similar?

I do not think anything is “wrong” about the BDSM lifestyle as long as there is a lot of trust, communication and safety...including a discussion ahead of time, if that makes sense.

the fear is genuine. leaking of the pics can be embarrassing. some nasty friend can get hold of the pics for fun.
once the porn in my mobile was about to be seen by a colleague. i snatched the mobile at last moment n deleted all porn.

there's more to life than sex. there's more what couples do than sex. if you're not ok with it, there are other ways you guys have have sex. one way that's comfortable to both of you.