The bain of my life

Im so sick of this, all of this stuff in my head is preventing me from living a normal life, why do I have to be burdened with all these thoughts. Ive had depression since christmas last year but have started to feel a bit better in the last through months through exercise and looking after myself. However I feel like these thoughts will never go away so ill be able to live a normal life where I can have deep and meaningful relationships with people. All I seem to do is worry about life always trying to figure out everything. This can range from philosophical questions to questions about human psychology and whether its innate or social conditioning. Such questions as 'what is a friend', 'what makes people different', 'where do opinions come from' 'what is humour'. You may say this all seems interesting but it takes over anything I do in life, I cant just have a good time with friends or anything because of this. Even simple things like a film I cant find entertaining as I am constantly thinking the whole way through. It makes me anxious as I feel I can never let people in fully as I feel all this information is too much for most people. Maybe ive always been like this and because of my anxiety it forces me to focus on much more and not relax. I feel like its just a constant cycle of wanting to know but never fully being satisfied. I just need someone to reassure me its anxiety as this is not the life I want.