My anxious mind is suffocating itself

When I become self conscious of something about myself I immediately want to change it to what I think is ideal. Changing takes time, too much time. So now I have this gigantic list of things I want to change about myself for example my speech.
Once I was made aware that I speak like a four year old I started to work on it, so in some ways my speech has improved but there are times where I'm crippled by my anxiety to the point where I can't speak, or I mumble and pray the people know what I'm talking about. I will never understand how speaking comes naturally to people.
It's like that about everything! Once my mind focuses on something it destroys and I'm left with a shattered version of what I once had and I'm left hoping it heals stronger than before.

There are only so many hours in the day. Unfortunately one has to prioritise what one wants to change or there isn't time to change everything.

Have you considered why you are crippled by anxiety when you speak? Are you worried about what the other people will think? Something else?

salted lipstick wrote:There are only so many hours in the day. Unfortunately one has to prioritise what one wants to change or there isn't time to change everything.

Have you considered why you are crippled by anxiety when you speak? Are you worried about what the other people will think? Something else?

I get the impression that speaking comes naturally to people but it doesnt for me. I feel like it's a disability