How are you feeling today?

A sticky thread, to vent/talk/opine about how we're feeling today, from a GAD standpoint. But not exclusively confined to only anxiety...

And to start with.

Merry Christmas!

Every day feeling better/worse My physical symptoms just keep coming,changing,being confused all the time by the fact that I have a serious health disease,but still trying to live like I used to do.

I had a fight with my son a couple days ago and have been feeling worried and anxious about it. A lot of childhood memories flashed to my mind, ones that I haven't thought about in decades. Lots of shame for both of us.

My anxiety tends to sneak up on me, and it's usually worse than I realized by the time I realize how profound it is. I had that realization today. Overcast/rainy day didn't help, not just for mood, but I could use some exercise and fresh air, but I'm stuck inside.

Snaga wrote:A sticky thread, to vent/talk/opine about how we're feeling today, from a GAD standpoint. But not exclusively confined to only anxiety...

And to start with.

Merry Christmas!

Today, I'm felling good. I take my meals which is very tasty. You know, regularly I check my pressure up. Today was the date of check up, now I'm preparing to go there.

like there's really something wrong with me. i can't tell if i am transgender, or just depressed because i haven't made any friends in 2 years, or if i have GAD which is causing me to avoid certain social situations. i just have no idea

turnuptheradio wrote:like there's really something wrong with me. i can't tell if i am transgender, or just depressed because i haven't made any friends in 2 years, or if i have GAD which is causing me to avoid certain social situations. i just have no idea

Do you fear being transgender?

not good, but not bad either (compared to other times)

before i have a panic attack i have a creeping feeling like its about to come.
so i do whatever i need to do FAST before it strikes me and then im completely immobilized and unable to think

I usually recognize the onset of a panic attack first by a change in breathing. Like a tightness or mild suffocation. The problem is I would hyper-ventilate, get all numb and tingly like I was having a heart attack or stroke. Too much air still felt like not enough.
Recognizing the onset can help divert or diffuse the attack. It has been a while since I had one that just took things over.

How am I feeling? Somewhat stressed because of the Thanksgiving holiday and coming Christmas. Family expectations and pressure. Work asked me for overtime, but I declined. I feel a bit guilty about that.

Snaga, it is good to see a Bugs Bunny Santa Claus. I miss your Bugs Bunny avatars.

yeah I really enjoyed them for a while... ofc right now, all remote avvies are disabled, but when the new site gets started they should be back.

I've been struggling emotionally with filing for SSDI, and asking myself about how people will treat me if I get it. My family is often denying I have problems to me which only makes it worse.
If I get it, I plan to live away from them very permanently. They definately have contributed to my triggers during my whole life. I feel like disempowered so much of the time being in their lives. It hurts a lot and they have no idea how they contribute to it, or my cycles of fearful behavior.
I may move in a week or so to the state and area I would prefer. I am glad that is on the table and may come to fruition soon. I'm listening to a lot of spiritual type of supportive videos online and that is helping. I will see old acquaintances tomorrow morning and Friday I think too, so that is very helpful.