My family gives me anxiety

I'm 22 years old, I've always been suffering of anxiety and depression due to a dreadful episode I assisted to when when I was 5, and it got worse in high school when I found out I had Hypothyroidism. I've been in therapy for a few years, then stopped, took a gap year after high school, I traveled and worked in America, I felt amazing, I had no fear, I felt like I was able to do anything I wanted. Then I got back home and found a job in my home town for another year, and went back to live with my parents. Being back at home and doing an awful job didn't help, my anxiety and panic attacks came back stronger than ever. I restarted therapy and started to take medications. I left again, to another country, yo start university, the medications were really helping me, I felt amazing again, I felt myself. Now I'm home for the holidays, the panic attacks are back, tormenting me. My family is a really loud, nervous family. My mom especially goes crazy for everything, screams for everything, she is always about to burst, and I can't stand it, I love them, but I can't wait to go back, they make me feel sick! I feel like I could die because they make me so nervous, so scared, so worried about everything. Is it possible that a place that should be familiar and comforting like home is giving me anxiety?

thank you,
I really need opinions.

Lizzie

Sure. I used to get panic attacks at church, or the mall- places intimately familiar and previously comfortable with- and they came out of nowhere, seemingly, but once they started, I had them in those places for a number of years.

Dear Lizzie:

Often enough, homes and families are not the safe place a child needs. As I read your post, it was clear to me that your family is literally making you sick. For your own health, put a big, big distance between you and that place that SHOULD be safe and comforting, but in reality, has been and is clearly harmful to you.

atina