I need to talk to somebody but

I have nobody. I am trapped living with my emotionally abusive mother. I have no friends. All I have is my boyfriend and my therapist.

I need to talk to somebody, so I came here. But I don't know where to go.

Im diagnosed BDP with an anxiety disorder, Ive been sexually assaulted, Im severely depressed.

I don't know where to talk or what to say because how do you explain anything without having to go through everything?

And Ive made probably about 5 or 6 posts and just deleted them before submitting because I keep just crying and panicking.

And Im fighting another panic attack and Im fighting self injury because Im pregnant and I can't afford to injure myself and I am not allowed to take my pills any more and I ust want to scream and I feel like nobody cares and my problems don't matter and Im not allowed to talk to them to anybody.

ANd the only two people who will listen are my boyfriend and therapist and i can't keep putitng it all on them and I just want to scream!

"I need to talk to somebody, so I came here. But I don't know where to go."

Feel free to chat with me.