Waking up without Anxiety/Ocd anymore?

Hey,

So for the past month or so I've been having hocd + ocd of defining words and a fear that I'd forget words/have a disorganized speech. There was one day in particular where I was so stressed and petrified that I spent the whole day worrying and talking to myself out loud so I would remember words. The next day, my fear of being homo/forgetting words was completely gone; but I'd still have compulsive thoughts. My ocd of defining words still remained but I wasn't fearing it anymore; it was as if I had gotten so used to fear that I just began living comfortably with it. Now, I've believed in god since I was born but the day I woke up (same day where I didn't have anxiety that I could FEEL) I stopped having faith in his existence. Now I don't give a $#%^ about anything anymore, I don't get anxious but I know I'm not in the right mentality. Is it possible for anxiety/stress to evaporate into thin air or is this another disorder? Or get so used to anxiety that you still have it in your head but can't feel it? Note: I also have pain in my left eye, trouble sleeping and headaches in the left of my head. I used to be sensitive about everything but now I have little emotion. Any help is appreciated, I have no clue wtf is going on with me.