Hi there, this is my first time on this forum, though I've stalked the boards for a while. I scheduled an appointment with my GP to address my anxiety and it is in 2 days, so I'm kind of freaking out. Just a quick summary of my reason for scheduling/all my issues. I'm sorry if this is long.
I've always been a worrier and a skiddish scared person. None of that is new. However, just a year ago I began experiencing a different level of worrying. It was like I could no longer handle stressors the same way as I used to. Things that normally stressed me out and worried me somewhat, like a big exam or meeting a new person, now caused me to panic physically and emotionally. I was consistently unhappy and worried about everything and started having panic attacks, not super frequently, but maybe a few a month, whereas I used to only get them when encountering my phobias. So this was all new to me.
At first I just figured I was stressed and a busy college student feeling the pressure, even had a therapist tell me this. But this continued into winter break and then the summer. Then I thought it may be my birth control, so I went off of it. Still no change. I have physical symptoms, like fatigue and shortness of breath, numb hands, etc. and the mental symptoms of irritability lack of concentration, etc. I began convincing myself that maybe I'm just making this up. Maybe I'm overreacting and doing this for attention. Maybe I could calm myself down if I really tried.
But then I went on vacation to my favorite most peaceful place in the world. Been going there my whole life and I have never felt as peaceful and well as there. And had two panic attacks throughout the week. That's when I knew for sure I should go to the doctor.
So I made an appointment but now I'm beginning to get super nervous and am worrying about the possible outcomes. I don't want to say I think I have any particular disorder because I know the Internet is unreliable and google searches don't tell you anything. But I do notice that everything you guys talk about experiencing on the forums and every symptom list I've seen is consistent with my life. So part of me believes I may have GAD. If so, I'd like to know so I can get the right treatment for myself.
However this is where the problem sets in. I don't know how to tell the doctor that I would like to be assessed for an anxiety disorder without sounding like I'm just someone that wants a diagnosis to feel special. That is asking for one for drugs or sympathy. I don't want to be diagnosed with anything. But if I am consistent with GAD or any other type of anxiety, I'd sure as hell like to know.
So I guess I could just use some insight as to your first appointments and how or if any of you got diagnosed. And maybe what I can say to convey that I don't just want her to give me a drug to calm it down or refer me to someone to just talk. I am open to both these and any treatments, however I want know whether or not this is something real, a real issue, or something I'm just overexaggerating. I would like her to rule out anything physical and assess my anxiety to see what's going on because this is not me. I was not like this a year ago. It's not normal for me and I just have a gut feeling something is off.
I'm so sorry for the length of this, so if you don't want to read it all:
TL;DR: been experiencing abnormal level of anxiety for a year now, along with other symptoms. Always been a worrier but something is definitely off. Made first doctor's appointment to figure out what's wrong, but worried about coming across as wanting attention or drugs. Don't know how to convey that I think I may have an anxiety disorder without sounding like some annoying know it all scrounging for attention. And how to say that I want to rule out physical stuff and potentially give a diagnosis if needed without again sounding like described above. Any insight to how you did it?