I'm desperate

I'm a young mother who's dealt with anxiety for years. I've had some triggers in the past few years which have made my anxiety much more uncontrollable. I now fear all kinds of illnesses and that I'm going to die before my daughter grows up and she's going to be traumitized or even that she might be greatly I'll. I've become obsessed with cancer scares and brain illnesses. I don't know what to do if it's not my GAD, it's this health stuff. I've been to the ER so many times for me and my daughter and I feel like at this point I'm bugging our primary care physicians with my anxiety. I hate feeling like this, I feel as if I'm going to cause my daughter so much pain if I don't get control. Which is why I'm doing everything I possibly can to gain control of this mental illness. Im crying just talking about it because I hate how powerful this is. It ruins my life. Im willing to open up to complete strangers on the internet about this, that's how bad I need things to change. My daughters grandmother on her dads side died of a very rare brain disease and my uncle on my dads side died of lung cancer. Plus my daughters father and my brother both suffer from brain injuries because of car accidents and I even have a fear of driving. Any family member who's suffered from anything no matter how rare, I feel it'll happen to me or my daughter. feel like I'm not a good mother because of this. I don't want my daughter to go through depression or anxiety and most importantly my greatest fear. Her or me dying anytime soon or becoming severely ill.

Hello Anxi0usMama,

Its sounds like you really are having a bad time with your condition....I am not sure what exactly are you looking for since everything you wrote needs some work to get rid of, have you seen a therapist or anyone who deals with this sort of problems?