Severe anxiety in the morning as I wake up

Hi Guys,

I haven't posted for ages but remember the amazing help I received from this forum in the past.

My depression and anxiety started about four years ago when my partner was ill - he was an alcoholic and life was very hard. I used to wake up every morning dreading the day. In fact the feeling of intense anxiety seemed to wake me up. I have had numerous different sessions of councelling and have been on meds - Mirtazapine and Citalopram but nothing has helped.
Sadly my partner passed away two years ago but I have rebuilt my life and I remarried two and a half months ago to a wonderful man.

I still suffer from anxiety though and recently it has been worse than ever and it is getting unbearable. It is the severe dread every morning as I wake that I cannot deal with.

The only thing I can put it down to is the fact that I am in debt and unfortunately as I work for myself my income is quite low and not regular.
I have been in touch with a debt councelling charity who are a huge help and I have contacted my bank and credit cards so the whole situation is out in the open. My husband is also a huge support.
But I can't stop worrying!

Has anyone else experienced severe anxiety as they wake up?
And how on earth can I deal with it?

Thank you very much xx

My anxiety is always worse on a morning.

You've not fully woken up, so you're not totally rational. You also, naturally, look at the day ahead and wonder what it may bring. If you're not having a good time of it, it's natural to think that your day is likely to be like the others. And so the negative thoughts flood in and the anxiety kicks in.

You've taken positive action with regards to your debts. If you are able to seek help, that's a massive step. Be proud.

The worrying process is your mind's way of trying to control something out of your control. You've taken some steps, try and accept how things are and keep liaising with the debt charity to ensure you stay within your means and on plan.

Best wishes
SB

Thank you SB
You have understood perfectly, and explained what is going on inside me in a way that makes so much sense.