Constant fantasies in my head

Hello. I'm not sure if this belongs here but since GAD is one of my diagnosis I decided to try here. I am a 52 year old female. I also have clinical depression ( currently well controlled with meds) and PTSD. The problem is that a lot of the time I live my life in my head. I have fantasies of people I know and care about taking care of me. Nothin sexual. For example I will imagine myself being I'll and someone from church coming over and taking me to the hospital and staying with me. Or I will imagine someone taking the time to talk with me about things that matter. Or about people being concerned about me. These thoughts go into more elaborate, played out situations that go on in my head for hours. And it is quite constant. It is always centered around me. It is a terrible distraction. It's hard to pay attention to anything else. Is this part of my anxiety?

Dear amygotgrace:

The fantasies you describe are your efforts to CALM your anxiety. You find comfort in these day dreaming comforting stories, someone providing you with the comfort that you did NOT get as a child. The child in you, still scared and alone, is dreaming of the care and comfort and attention she so desperately needed and still needs.

Would you like to share more about the little girl in you, how she was left so alone and scared? Let her talk. I will listen to her and respond here.
atina

Thank you so much for responding, atina. I'm not sure if I should open the Pandora box of childhood. In the past when I've done so in therapy or have even let myself think too much about it I have sunk into terrible depressions and landed in the hospital. I really would like to learn to live in the hear and now but it's very hard for me to do. You are right. I was not cared for as a child nor as an adult. At 52 I do at least have a church family that cares about me but, of course not on the level that I have needed throughout my life. So that's probably why it's hard for me to get out of my head.

Dear amygotgrace:

I suppose you got overwhelmed before when talking about your childhood, feelings too intense. Only in small portions then. like you did in this post I am responding to. Good psychotherapy with good therapist could be great for you, one to teach you skills to endure intense emotions, one to go easy and gently with you. I think your fantasies are good tools for you to calm yourself down. They are solutions not a problem. Post here anytime.

atina