I just broke up with my boyfriend of nine years, what now?

Hi. I'm new here and I just broke up with my boyfriend. We were together for 9 years. My counselor and minister said I it would be best to break up with him in order to get better. He's an enabler and controller. I'm bulimic and compulsive spender so he enables me to stay sick (by providing me food and money when I ask him). And he's possessive. I got rid of all my friends when we got serious because he didn't like them. I have no friends now. Over the years I developed social phobia. I do have a my cat. I'm trying to get well now with my other disorders I mentioned (plus more). I don't want to leave my house now though (except to the counselor and store). My new ex lives just 10 houses from me so it was so easy to get to his house. Now I don't want to go anywhere. But I have to. I started college two weeks ago. Somehow I am managing as long I see my counselor regularly and take my medication every day. Some days are really hard though. I have two distant friends but we hardly ever talk to each other. I'm soo lonely. No one to watch movies with anymore or laugh with. What should I do now? I'm afraid to go out and explore. Any help would be appreciated. Sorry so long.

Hello wild. Your Anti-Social personality is different from the ASPD -antisocial (sociopathic/psychopathic) I moved your topic here while i see it should be in one of the Anxiety forums.

I'm not a mod in here so i'll ask someone to move it.

I've never had a serious relationship but from what I read, it sounds like you are capable of doing everything you want to do. It's recent so don't expect to feel top notch, because things hurt for a while. If you don't have friends now, I know it can be hard to know where to begin to look but like anything worthwhile it's worth being vulnerable for if you're nervous. And always remember that you are you boyfriend or no boyfriend, and should know there are things in you, your values and passions and such, that you don;t need people for. While you can still get lonely, never forget you have a lot even without someone there. I'd say just put yourself out there or call your old friends, try and talk to someone if it helps. I don't really know what I'm talking about, but you have the desire just go out and do what you want, don't let anyone including yourself stop you. Good luck internet friend! Sorry I'm not very smart.