I don't know what to do anymore *long post*

First of all I'm way to young for this everything you heat people my age always have to be happy and it's like a sin to be in pain in anyway or it'll just make people lose faith in this generation. I'm also scared this will make me a messed up adult. Well I'm having anxiety basically about other problems in my life like ocd and my social awkwardness that I got from a thing in 6th grade. I also have this thing from a long time ago that i did and nobody ever talks about it and it happened so long ago I'm not sure really what happenee but I can't talk to the people who I know we're there because if it was an okay topic to talk about we would already have. then finally I havevthis wired fear sometimes that I really can't explain or helped that's really annoying. Okay. Remember the thing I said about being to young well if I were to get help i would had to talk to my mom then If I really really thought I need therpy I would have to tell her everything witch I desperately don't want to do. Then if I got therpy my brother and sister would wonder where I go and I would be on some type if persctiption. I'm always seeing things about how sad it is to see a a person like me so that. I really am not sure what I should do please help or any advice I really feel alone

Your post is not long.

But please use divide it in paragraphs.

Hello
Sorry for the late response.
Please do not feel sad. Everything will be just fine.
No matter what your age is, you can ask for help.
It might be the anxiety that holds you from telling your mom about your feelings. I read your post and it looks like you are a brave person. You do things that have to be done even if they look a little frightening. Your mother is there to help you. I'm sure that she wishes only good to you and it will cause no harm to tell her. Please go and tell her about your anxiety, and let her know that you want help. It is not a bad thing to ask for help. On the contrary, it is appreciated.
Your brother and sister don't need to know about it. You can ask your mother to help you find something to tell them, if it is important to you that they won't know about it.
Good luck

Most countries have some type of anonymous help line. Like in Canada we have kidshelp phone and other mental health hotlines. Could you try calling one of them? or call 211 for help in finding services. I think that number is the same for Canada and U.S. How about a pastor?

Anyway, you don't give your age but you do sound young. The sooner you get some kind of mental health treatment, the better off you will be. Good luck to you.