ANYONE out there with the same problem as me??

I am a prolific composer and i tend to drink alot. I have panic attacks, haha if you want to hear about that just look at my posts but more to the point. 10:07am im up and ready to make more music. It gives me life. like real life. not like goin to store and shopping for groceries kinda life. like ima explore the universe life and develop an alternate personality and breath life into it. Not permanently of course. Music is my love life. driving to take a shot. Damn. Id say #1 is alchohol because it calms me down but #2 is with out a doubt musical creation. Gotta work on that. I cant stop just haha like if i listen to what i want to hear, i get teary eyed man and just start to smile. Too much emotion? Whats goin on here guys?

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thats my soundcloud(my music) Dont know how much longer my body can take this even though ive been cleared several times by hospitals, my drug abuse is hit high end and to be completey honest i love every second of it. So enjoy.

I like your tunes man! very chiptune inspired feel. Ah.. Chemical Plant.. oh Sonic. XD Yeah.. I feel similar in that way where I get teary eyed even though something's a happy situation.. smiling and cryin'. I get choked up over a youtube video now and then... jeebus!