Anxiety from Masturbation

I have had this problem for as long as I can remember, I get extremely anxious after masturbating because I believe it can negatively effect my complexion. I think I tipped the scales recently by masturbating at least 8 times in one day and today I felt so removed from the world that I could only do things when no one was around. People who know me tell me all the time to get a girlfriend. I agree with them but how in the world do I ? I am afraid of the world around me and feel as if it wants to hurt me in every way possible.

Sorry, I don't have an answer to the main issue here. But the girlfriend thing. I can tell you the whole world is out to hurt you. If you're a good guy, a good girl will come. You won't instantly meet your idea of what a girlfriend should be. You'll go through some tough things, but that's gonna happen to anyone. As a girl not out to hurt guys, I can tell you girls who aren't out to hurt guys exist. Good luck!