Am I becoming asexual? I'm gay

Hey,
I don't know what's happening to me. I am a 17 year old guy who has recently come out of the closet as gay. I have always been attracted to guys, and it was so hard for me to accept it but I finally came out this year. The problem is, three days later after I came out my friend said "You can't know you are gay unless you've kissed a girl", and I have never kissed a girl, but I've had sex with guys. That same day, I was having lunch with my family and my dad said "Edward, I will accept you no matter what, I don't care if you are gay or straight, but I think you are confused, and deep inside you are gay, and will know in a few years. It scared me so much my dad telling me that, I've always wanted to be straight, but now that I have come out of the closet it's not as bad being gay and I like it, I don't want to change. So I started freaking out a little bit, looking online whether it was possible to "naturally change from gay to straight", because I didn't want to change and the next thing I know is I wake up the next day and... my sex drive is completely gone. I look at a guy, and it gives me anxiety, "Am I attracted to him?", "Why am I not attracted to him?". Every time I look at a guy, shirtless or with a shirt on, I ask myself the same question. I have lost my sexual interest in guys, and it's like a have this anxiety in me that I might be turning asexual. I have nothing against asexual people, it's just, I've always been such a horny boy, and I've always checked guys out, but all of a sudden I have lost my interest in guys, and looking at guys confuses me and creates anxiety. I have cried because of this so much. I get spikes sometimes and get depressed, my family didn't know what was going on with me and I told them because I needed help. I have been so scared, I have always liked guys. The other day I was hooking up with a guy and I got a boner, and I loved making out with him. But when I look at guys, it just makes me anxious and makes me doubt myself, and I don't know why my libido is so dead. I am going to the psychiatrist and psychologist to get help, and have been prescribed Lexapro. It's been three weeks, and I feel happier from time to time, I guess it's starting to have an affect? Last week, I felt like I was finally getting my libido back. I would look at guys butts and think "Danm. What a nice butt!" but then went to the movies, and I started getting a spike, and then lost what was left of my sex drive again.

Am I becoming asexual? Is it possible to become asexual? What is happening to me? I have always been attracted to guys, and all of a sudden I lose my interest. I am so scared. It has been about two months since this happened and I still feel very anxious about it. Every guy I see makes me ask myself and causes my anxiety.

What's going on? Please help me.

Thank you so much,

Edward

Hi Edward...Could you maybe just be so relieved that coming out went so smoothly, that you are just having a rebound of anxieties and emotions.?Maybe you were expecting a worse outcome and had alot of emotions built up...Things went easier then expected,and maybe you are questioning yourself,lifestyle, and actions.Its a transition from being in the closet and having a secret lifestyle,to being accepted and able to live your life freely..Could being homosexual had more meaning to it when it was a secret lifestyle also?Could it possibly have lost some of its excitement now that you are out and have been accepted as who you are?I dont know..just throwing some suggestions out there and trying to help alittle.I wish you peace and happiness in life always..XX

starbright333 wrote:Hi Edward...Could you maybe just be so relieved that coming out went so smoothly, that you are just having a rebound of anxieties and emotions.?Maybe you were expecting a worse outcome and had alot of emotions built up...Things went easier then expected,and maybe you are questioning yourself,lifestyle, and actions.Its a transition from being in the closet and having a secret lifestyle,to being accepted and able to live your life freely..Could being homosexual had more meaning to it when it was a secret lifestyle also?Could it possibly have lost some of its excitement now that you are out and have been accepted as who you are?I dont know..just throwing some suggestions out there and trying to help alittle.I wish you peace and happiness in life always..XX

Definitely! Do you think this is just anxiety playing a big role?

Anyone else?

Anxiety could be involved, but either way, you don't have to second guess your own attractions. If you're not attracted to someone today, that's all that really matters.