Frustrated with being "held down"

Hello .

I'm a transsexual, i've been a Female always but born in a Male body.
I'm going on hormones when i'm done here and i can't wait, i talked with the sex cllinic recently cause i had to talk to somebody because i can't be who i really am here.
The Nurse at the clinic toldd to me that "I should get started on hormones now, that it was time".Recently they confronted me a after i told them ho i was and how i felt ne of the nurses said "You're a man, your journal says so, you have to dress in male clothes and be a man" and that just devastated me, i was mentally broken and felt like giving up on everything, i eventually got better and they realized that i couldn't wear male clothes or play the role as a man cause i'm a female.

I don't know what to do, they won't aloow me to get the hormones that i so despe
atly want. I can't stand it anylonger to be in a male body.

I'm not allowed to wear makeup here or do aything about my appearance.
I'm so frustrated and i feel like i'm being discriminated by the staff.

I can't take it anymore i want to get started on those hormones and if i were not here i ould have started on them.

I only have 2-3 months left here in rehab and i have come a long way, i feel like i don't need to be here anymore buut they don't agree

What to do?.

Hey,

If you put anyone in the wrong body, they're not going to be too haoppy about it, right? I mean, we all want to feel that we can be ourselves and not to instead feel like prisoners. in your case, please try to see the sex clinic's point of view. They cannot just administer such hormones to people without having a very good reason for it. I think that you need to first see a psychiatrist so that they can be sure that you genuinely are okay to mentally receive the hormones. Have you been to a psychiatrist?

If you have not been to a psyhciatrist, then the first step is to see your loacl doctor/general practitioner, obtain a referral from him/her, and then take it from there.

I know a guy from Australia who is now a girl. He went through years of the hormone and then had the surgery to 'convert' himself into a girl. I helped him in the initial stages to talk to his parents about it, and to go to his doctor.

Kevin

Thanks for the reply .

I have been talking to psycologist and doctor, i had a doctor here at rehab (sadly she's stopped now) who would write a note to the sexclinic also i AM going to get hormones that has been decided before i got here and doctors and psycologists say that it's the best for me, i just had to delay it because i had to go to rehab.

It' a rehab at a pshyciatric hospital (i don't have any psyciatric disorders), the reason i came here is because i suffer from anxeity.
I don't have anxiety anymore, now i just can get nervous but i now know how to deal with that.

I've been here for almost 6 months and a usually stay is about 3-6 months but i probally has 2 months more.

I have thinking about leaving this place before time and i most likely will.

Okay, so it seems that the process is already running along nicely for you... Be sure that you get your point across sufficiently, as communication is paramount in a patient-doctor relationship in order to get what you need.

Take care
Kevin