Help Im confused!

OK here's my case. I'm male and i get sexually attracted(but not emotionally )to males especially when they are good looking, I have this fantasy of getting an oral job from a good looking male or gay but not giving it. Also the attraction stays at a sexual level. On the other hand i get sexually and emotionally attracted to females. Am I gay or bisexual or what? but i don't want to be a gay or to be called one. Is there something wrong with me?

How sexually active are you? It sounds to be a lust, not necessarily gay or bisexual. You have no emotional attachements as you have said. How strong is this fantasy? Have you ever acted upon it and when did you start thinking of this? I can understand you better with a little more detail, dear.

-Nanashi-

Actually when i was 5 years old i was sexually exploited by a teen guy who works for our family. He sucks my dick and made do the same. It lasted for a year without me realizing it's something bad and not right and when i did it was to late. At such an early age i started masturbating and fantasize for sex with a woman. AT age 6 we had a neighbor and the couple had a male child which is just about my age. We became friends. We became to close and we started having sexual encounters but i can't recall/remember how it started to happen. Every time we're done i always felt the guilt for doing something really really bad. I tried not to do such thing anymore but i just can't control my sexual desire. I kept on looking and wanting for sexual satisfaction. It lasted until i'm 15. After that I tried my best to stay away from it. From that day on my sexual partners where all females and never had any sexual encounters with any males though the fantasy and urge is still there. I wan't to get rid of it but i don't know how or if it's even possible to do so.