Gender Identity - but not Disorder

Good evening.

Physically, I'm a 26-year old man. Mentally and emotionally, I've been a woman for a long time. I've always somewhat identified as a female, whether by acting as a female in online roleplaying, or with my mentality and personality markedly feminine. Only recently have I been acting out on it, and I really do think I've identified with a female 'self.' I've begun a bit of crossdressing and I've been talking to some people about my female persona and about my discovered sexual preferences.

However - here's the kicker. I only do this in the safety of my own home. I cannot bring myself to talk about it in any outside manner, and I do not have the guts to even remotely show who I really am outside of my apartment. I continually think about the end-game and what I want from myself, and even though I've completely identified with my female self, I am too afraid of outside influences to actually express it.

What to do...?

Heya,

This 'end game' that you are referring to is that you want to have a sex change, right? In my time on this website, I have met more than a couple of males in your current position. One openly dresses as a female in society, but doesn't get any female hormone therapy and has no plans for a sex change operation. Another pesron, however, was one I managed to encourage to open up to his parents about his 'true' female nature. Two years after I met him here, he is now very much a she, and is well on his way to becoming a female physically too. He dresses as a female in public, is taking hormones, and will eventually get the surgery.

Do'nt ever be afraid of letting your true nature shine from within. I'm aware that some in society do not take kindly to what they see in others, but you should not care about them. Everyone on this Earth has the right t feel comfortable with expressing their true self. My immediate advice to you is to talk penly to your doctor about what you are feeling. I believe there are many in your position who are living in silence, but this must not be, and it upsets me to know that such people feel as if they cannot express themselves.

Kevin

I don't know if I'm going to get a sex change operation, or even take hormones. That's where I question my endgame. I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do. The pros and cons of it all.

Then might I suggest you reach out to others who are like you. I know that is what you're trying to do by coming here, but this part of the website isn't all that active. Are there not other more active websites for gender identity issues?

Kevin

I dunno - kinda just Googled. Heh.